I never really thought that I'll ever write again and post a blog here since I've got no followers and no one's going to wait for every update that I'll post but I guess that's a good thing?

(I can post a blog here without having to worry about other people's opinions, hanash, etc.)

Life's is not really good at the moment. My dad died last September and I don't know who to trust in my family anymore. Since the closest one to me had the guts to turn her back on me and betray me.

Trust can be earned in so many ways but it's not you can give someone so easily. Once it's broken, a 'sorry' can't take away the pain they inflicted you. Damages have been done and it resulted wounds that would need time. A very long time.

My family was never that good to me but they never got this bad either. They got past my expectations when my daddy died. When he was still alive, he was my human shield. He protected me from anyone, from everything that could harm me. And now that he's gone, I don't even know how to stand up on my own feet, how to patch things up with my studie, how to cope up with reality.

I've forgotten the feeling of coming home. I miss the feeling of being home.

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I've read my first blog and it was so cringey. I had some errors, of course (I was way younger and didn't have a huge knowledge in English language. Glad that I grew up and learned more. LMAO). And I had THAT "someone" as inspiration but now, we're just friends and I'm so glad that we made everything clear in every issue that we got involved in.

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Speaking of friends, I'm so glad that I'm a part now of the squad I looked up to years ago. I never expected that but what do they say? Every happiness has its price. Had to pay huge deal after. I'm still healing now and I'm glad that I'm out of the terrible phase of healing and moving forward. And I'm so glad to be growing and glowing with the best peeps.

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About writing, I'm still thinking about whether to start to write again or to just keep on reading and supporting other authors here. I miss thinking of unique ideas and settings for the stories and also, the names and the characters! Though, I'm back to writing songs and poems again, I'm still not sure about this one, but we'll see...