Wow, who would have thought?

It's been seven years snce that one fateful day, when EXO debuted. It was so far away ago but I could still remember it. The eras had come by so fast, but it's still easy for me to hear EXO's Mama from memory.

That being said, it's been six years since I became an EXO-L. To be honest, I would not go back. It had been such a roller coaster of memories. In EXO is where I grew, both as a person and as a fan. I learned a lot from loving EXO. I came to know that I had talent in writing (who knew!) and even attempted the various visual arts there is. 

I remember flipping over when I found out that Baekhyun and Taeyeon were dating. Dang, child me was such a wuss. The pain is still fresh, it's like being bummed out from a breakup. But now that I've actually went through a nasty "breakup", the pain knowing that my bias is dating hurts more (lol). 

Losing three members was by far the most painful of all these. But to be honest, fast forward to a few years later, I'm more understanding of supportive of their leave. I mean, Tao was just 17 when he became a trainee. Jesus, at 17 now, I certainly don't know what to do with a contract that I have to fulfill for the most years of my emotional development.

Being an idol is hard. I mean, I think, the boys have at least though of quitting at least once. It's a lot of trouble to go through and even if I can see that they do enjoy what they are doing, it is difficult to keep up something if it keeps emotionally deflating you. 

The K-pop industry seems pretty perfectionist to me, I mean, all the difficult dance routines and the symmetrical formations, plus Korean society also seems to be obssessed with perfection. It's a tough industry out there and let's just clap for the boys making it this far.

Last year, I lapsed as a K-pop fan. I don't really have reasons, I just lapsed, along with lapsing with other things I used to do. After that, it was such a depressing moment in my life. I had to do some cleaning with "friends" and get rid of toxic people and habits. I noticed I was sadder, and that's when it clicked to me -- I was missing EXO in my life. 

See you, boys, in your next concert. 

EXO, thank you so much for being my home for these six years and counting.