Music doesn't touch my soul

Like it used to always do

I don't feel happy at all

But I don't feel really sad too

These days I'm restless and lonely

These days I don't watch TV

I just leave it on to pretend I have somebody

Talking to me constantly

Oh I just feel empty, not really numb

Like an emotional rollercoaster every other day

But all of that just makes me feel dumb

I'm not black or white per say, I just feel gray

Today I feel on a roll

I managed to cook and clean too

Now I can pretend I'm normal

While I'm falling apart and ruining my youth

These days I'm energetic and tired

These days I'm too caffeine wired

I'm so ugly and I don't feel really desired

Can someone tell me that from life, "you're fired"?

Oh I just feel empty, not really numb

Like an emotional rollercoaster every other day

But all of that just makes me feel dumb

I'm not black or white per say, I just feel gray