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yeah i believe in non sujin rights.... non sujin rights to shut the up
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hsuj95n nights like these 💗 (i was held at gunpoint 2 caption this)
min_gu nights like theze where i sneak out wif my hotshot boyfren 🤪🤪
hsuj95n @min_gu i will skin you bald
han_seojin you have a boyfriend?????
hsuj95n @han_seojin i have a college degree
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hsuj95n controversial opinion but I’m wannable
shins00j imagine how awkward it would b if u weren’t........
koyejiin omg?? I didn’t know you were a fan too!! who do you like? i like seongwu~ 💕
hsuj95n @koyejiin yeah haha i became a fan only recently 😆😆 and i like minhyun :)
min_gu THIS IS TH FUNNIES TTHIGN I’VE EVER SNENEN
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hsuj95n what great use of an architectural degree @dongyeo1
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JEI
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basic information
더는 망설이지 마 제발
01
“OBVIOUSLY.”
full name
han sujin 한수진
OTHER NAMES

수진상uri dashi manna bombarami jinagamyeon
an alleged term of endearment coined by minju that should perfectly encapsulate who sujin is both as a person and an audacious . no one really dares use the moniker so freely (and  sober) and no one is really stupid enough to do so. but, despite its forbidden nature, the nickname unyielding sticks and would often come up when her friends are knee-deep in vodka.
 
date of birth (age)
 oct 6, 1995 (23)
birth place
ansan, gyeonggi-do south korea
hometown
ansan, gyeonggi-do, south korea
ethnicity
korean
languages spoken
 

  한국어ri dashi manna bombarami jinagamyeon
the language sujin’s best at, or really, the only language she knows. her vocabulary sways with the trend and is now b with slangs and every obscene term she could come up with.
 
looks
내 심장을 거두어 가
02
“OK, MOOD.”
 
FACECLAIM
 LOONA yves
BACKUP  FC
WJSN seola or AOA seolhyun 


APPEARANCE
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
sujin sports a boring head of brunette hair that falls perfectly under her collarbones. boring in the sense that she never strays from the same pattern — jet black, brown, jet black, brown, jet black, brown, edna mode bangs, jet black, brown. she’s a little over 164, but subjected to changes depending on which on-sale steve madden shoes she decides to wear out. she’s a size 4 and weighed 48kg the last check up, although she’s convinced she went up 2 kg after visiting her mother over the weekend. her makeup style is as heavy as it gets and she takes it upon herself whenever her makeup routine is narrowed to eyebrow liners, foundation and lipstick due to time restraint. she has no notable piercings so far aside from the ones on her lobes, although she initially wanted to have one on the shell of her ear, but the ambition died down as quick as it was thought of.
 
FASHION
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ON THE DAILY
vivid
sooyaa...
oomeis...
skannette
sujin dresses like botched vivid wu, except it’s not really botched than it is honest attempt to pull off her ensemble with end-of-season sale items. her take on everyday fashion isn’t ideally everyday; it’s more of flare pants and flamboyant headwear and patterned jackets and sometimes, maybe, on a miraculously good day, a t-shirt.
 
sujin perishes at the idea of being underdressed even when everyone else around her are sporting skinny jeans and statement crop tops from forever 21. she refuses to wear nor own sweatpants, feels uneasy going to the dentist in denim shorts and a shirt, has second thoughts about this black on black outfit and dare not head out without accessories dangling off her body parts. sujin doesn’t have a distinct style per say and would constantly fluctate between dainty feminine and class a designer and Thot Couture and even street, considerably, if ever her fanny pack collection decides grow by itself.
 
despite the over-the-top edge of her wardrobe, most, if not the entirety, of her clothes are cheap finds. while they’re not exactly thrift store prices, a substantial amount are not any more than 30k won. she rarely ever buys items that aren’t on sale, either. exceptions are only made when 1) she knows that there’s no way the price could get any lower than that and 2) when she direly needs it and can’t wait for the next season to roll around.
 
as much as possible, with every chance she gets, sujin likes to dress up like she has the money. which she has, vaguely, but the garish style she aims for is more of projection than actuality. parties and formal events (or in this case, disbandment concerts) are just excuses for her to pull out the hand-me-down chanels from her mother and the faux fur coat she got for less than 20k.
 

GIVEN THE CHANCE
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aokbab
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lissakah...

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MORE INFORMATION
그래 날카로울수록 좋아
03

 
 
 
PERSONALITY TRAITS
 
VIVACIOUS IDEALISTIC STAUNCH
EVASIVE UNSELFISH SELF DEVALUING
AUTHORITATIVE IMPETUOUS
 
 
ELABORATION
 
(sujin is generally known as the pretty girl with a personality to boot. while it doesn’t necessarily come off condescending, and sounds notably better than vapid narcissist, she just wished to have a better identifier.)
 
sujin is the picture perfect romcom flick cheerleader — all preppy and loud  and demanding and born with an affinity for trouble. she never takes anything seriously and avoids confrontation like an olympic sport.
 
the only thing she lacks from the Go, Fight, Win aspect is the standard self-centeredness of it all. sujin would go lengths for people, perceive what’s better for them even at the cost of her own betterment. sometimes, she’s unselfish to the point that it’s selfish, because she’s too caught up on doing what’s generally good than what the other party deems as good.
 
sujin sees the world in the eyes of innocence; of hopefulness. she’s one of the people who finds comfort in the accustomed, comfort in what they believe in. she’s one of the people who’d take the the reverie of fallacy over the truth of reality any day.
 
sujin is evasive in more ways than one, but particularly more in emotions. she’s easily overwhelmed by feelings, never understood them, never liked them, never handled them well. the longer she’s out in the real world, the more private she becomes. it’s hard for her to open up, hard when there’s always the prospect of vulnerability, harder when there’s always the prospect of inadvertently investing feelings.
 
sujin is someone whose mind almost never wavers. she’s firm in her beliefs, her wants, her own ideals. she meant it more as commital— a symbol of sturdiness in such an erratic world. but more often than not, people misconstrue it as inflexiblity on her part.
 
 

BACKGROUND


sujin grew up in a family of five in ansan. they started off with average wealth, enough to sustain sujin and her brothers for most of their infancy, but it progressed drastically when they franchised a commercial bbq place around their neighbourhood. this easily bumped them up a social class, even more so when they started hiring staffs to tend to the restaurant and even more when they’ve established another branch in gwacheon. their dad had also gotten promotion after promotion after promotion at his job at the office, enough to finance beyond their needs and even accomodate to privileges that seemed far-fetched at their early years.

sujin is the middle sibling among two brothers — youjin and seojin respectively — which seems like hell more than anything. it was insufferable at some point in time, being the only girl amongst that collective stench of axe body spray and testosterone, and her puberty phase wasn’t exactly the best experience for a teenage girl going through perpetual mood swings. but it wasn’t all that bad, not when sujin’s got the Daddy’s Girl Card and made sure the privilege was well implemented. it got her off from Rowdy Brothers Issues and conflicts with her mother about the benchmark of how mini miniskirts should be. it even got her absolved from breaking curfew next to curfew to the point that they’ve completely rid of the rule as long as proper discipline is established (it was the greatest achievement a girl her age with such affinity for trouble could attain.)

her privileges were cut short, however, when her parents got divorced a little after junior year. the reason for the divergence still remains unclear, and no matter how persistent their mother tries to convince them that it was merely a matter of falling out, the siblings definitely suspected a third party on their dad’s part. soon enough, divorce papers were settled and their mother got custody (even though both youjin and sujin were of age to make their own decisions, they wouldn’t want it any other way.) the restaurant business was also — willingly at that — entrusted to them, which only corroborates the Third Party Theory, and while this gave them the upper hand in financial status, the siblings weren’t all too happy about the possibility of their speculations becoming anything but.

senior year for sujin was regrettably spent adjusting to reality. her brothers got off the radical change in their everyday lives frighteningly easy while sujin’s still stuck in between moving forward and holding on to what used to be. diverting from what’s accustomed has never been something she was so keen about, especially being so close to her dad whose company made up most of her childhood. so the way things felt was so sudden, so abrupt it felt like whiplash. sujin, by ideal standards, had to learn how to become less dependent, how to deal and live with consequences without certain privileges on standby ready to spare her, and how to actually grow up and become what controversially is an adult all in one year. by the time she graduated high school, sujin’s ready and prepped to face the world with minimal to no assistance from her family.

sujin attended dong seoul university as an architectural major for college. the unprecedented decision seemed so dubious to her mother initially, how it came off more as an attempt to stay away rather than anything else. she rationalizes by saying the local college didn’t offer the specific course she wanted, not to mention the commute back and forth would eat up her time. the elements of her choice, while seemingly valid in an objective standpoint, just didn’t seem to add up — the distance, her mom suspects, was a principal. the nearest college has a perfectly suitable alternative for architecture (which, in addition, prodded more questions such as when and how sujin became so inclined to pursue this profession), and lest accommodation was still a drawback, there’s a dorm situated a block down from campus.

however, sujin was just so steadfast in moving to seongnam.

the real reason behind all this trouble was nothing short of her mother’s intuition. sujin wanted to get away, but it was nothing personal. it was more of a favor to herself, an attempt to finally take on What Conventionally Is Adulthood as soon as then, and being surrounded by what’s customary just didn’t click well with the plan. her mother eventually yielded with a compromise on sujin’s part to visit regularly, which she agreed to with not the vaguest hint of refusal.

sujin had no concrete plans after college. it was either take a break, live lavishly, and travel the world (or south east asia for starters) just like she dreamed of. that or, graduate, get a ty job and pay for her own water bills. she’s not an avid fan of the latter but she wouldn’t entirely dread it either.

in the end, sujin pursued neither.

after graduating college, as sequel to adulting, she braved the city life and moved to seoul all by herself. her mom had kind of given up trying tend, not when she’s been vexingly persistent about “being respected as an individual” who can “look after herself.” sujin just wanted to feel that her efforts weren’t in vain just because she hailed from a well-off family (although it’s a bit of a distress right now with her overdued phone and water and electricity bills, but she’ll get a hold of it soon. eventually. sometime later.) sujin took on as much jobs as she could to validate Said Adulting, jumping from corporate to media to even modelling for an online clothing shop. even though she graduated with an architectural degree and had prior plans to strive for that dream, everything about it just seemed so out of reach at the moment, especially when she feels she doesn’t have the luxury of convenience.

it took her a while and a band of horrible bosses screeching into her before she realized that she didn’t want to give up on being an architect. she decided to continue her studies and pursue a second degree in interior design and soon found her place in hanyang university. she’s currently on her second year as an id major.


LIFESTYLE:
sujin lives in a one-bedroom apartment around wangsimni by herself, just a few blocks away from her university. it’s a little cramp for her taste although it’s not exactly a deal breaker, not when it’s not yet her home. it’s really more of an attempt of independence rather than actual, permanent residency. she’d say it’s because she hasn’t completely moved out of her mother’s house, hilariously because sujin’s been denying all forms of familial support ever since her location transfer (which, again, is currently on hold until certain financial needs are met.) she deems it as temporary living space until it isn’t.
 
(she spends most of her free time trying to konmari her entire apartment but all attempts so far have ended up fruitless and her passed out on the couch.)
 
mundanity in sujin’s life is more or less defined as waking up half an hour past her alarm blasting and sprinting to school in 4-inches charles and keith and a gazillion art supplies hanging off her shoulders. lunch preferences are alternating between grass and croutons and whatever cholestorol-packed meal they’re serving at the cafeteria.
 
sujin’s drinking habit back in college guaranteed a plaque of recognition in Getting Unequivocally faced. she was the type who refused to go home until all the water in her body has traned to tequila, and the type to have a pregame before the actual pregame. let it be known that friday and saturday nights aren’t ever spent sober, not even when she has make up class scheduled at 8 am the next day. but ever since she took on her second degree, her once perpetual presence in the party scene diminished significantly (and regrettably, as told by minju whose sensible compass was just as askew.) diminished becomes substantial halt when sujin traded nightlife vigour for sleepless nights spent talking on the phone with her kpop boy.
 

TRIVIA
• she’s one of the people who actually listened to shaun when everyone else accused him of chart manipulation.
• her knowledge of kpop is more of inevitability than anything. it’s hard to miss the buzz when you’re surrounded by it and even harder when you’re literally friends with a kpop idol. just imagine the impossibility of not knowing when you end up dating one.
• a sailor mouth LOL cussing is part of her everyday dictionary
• claims to have the best taste in music — “that’s because i don’t listen to burn it up or whatever that is.”
• sujin’s had quite a dating history, although it’s not a serial dater’s or someone with a promiscious record — it’s more of casual, one-time dates and fleeting boyfriends (to which sujin owes to the imprudent vibe of modern society). it’s nothing she’s ashamed of, essentially because they weren’t serious. in retrospect, it sounds bad and depicts her as flippant and non-commital (which is something she can’t rebuff either) but sujin’s assured it’s a mutual case of Lack Of Commitment. besides, excluding seongwu, the list of relationships she’s acknowledged doesn’t exceed the number of three.
• her favourite show is grey’s anatomy (“no wonder you’re so messed up” “WHAT’S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN”)
RELATIONSHIPs
달빛조차도 눈을 감은 밤
04
“ FEELINGS FOR REAL.”
 




   
 

 

 

minju’s more or less the most prominent person in sujin’s life – “best friend, sujin, best friend is the term you’re looking for.” they’ve known each other since the former of highschool, which is considerably long for a dynamic that ran on pissing each other off. they weren’t exactly the best of friends then; had the potential to be, but they didn’t share enough lunch breaks and crush anecdotes to transcend beyond that. it’s only around senior year when they knew about their matching plans for college (move to seongnam, attend dong seoul university, make terrible decisions) did they start becoming a more habitual presence in each other’s lives. soon enough, habitual turns into constant, bad decisions turn into looming regrets and kim minju turns into a name permanently associated with han sujin.
 
the way they complement each other so well is so uncanny, it was a friendship bounded to happen from the beginning. they’re alike in ways that are almost unrivaled, how they bond over more on the things they’re bad at doing rather than things they’re good at. neither are disposed to sentiment or matters that demanded emotional transparency, and both have affinities for ing things up (which only says a lot about how much crap people have to put up with.) they’re obnoxious and tenacious and bad at conceding to reality; they’re basically partners in crime, only more literal in the crime department.
 
minju is essentially why sujin knows half the people she walked past by the courtyard. it’s become some sort of notion that sujin and minju are a buy one take one deal, except more often than not, people would rather not have the plus one. minju’s more of an insider than sujin is, though, so the number of acquaintances she has to take note of does get a little overwhelming, especially when a good half are always so far up everyone’s business. but in spite of that being the reccuring case, sujin has met some of the best people through minju (even though the Tyrant Herself is enough to make sujin feel unbelievably blessed as it is.)
 



 



 
KIM
MINJU
 
 
 
#0011
옹성우
 
 
 
WANNA
ONE
 
 
    
 

 
or, in layman’s term the friend group (sujin likes to call them What Was I Thinking.) no one else really knows the explicit history of these seven and how they came to be. the most they got was knowing a good half came from different majors and are basically knitted by mutual connections. it actually started off with the four from the acting department — minju, seongwu, soojung and taegyu — and, soon sujin by automatic alliance. they weren’t really an established group then; a sporadic thing that only comes up when it’s friday night and taegyu’s up for some rum remedy.
 
it’s during the third trimester of freshmen year, just after dongyeol was recruited through sujin and chanhee emerged out of nowhere, when they started getting remarkably closer. free periods started to match, personalities turned more candid, soojung’s alcohol tolerance went up a notch and by the time they’re sophomores, their friendship became a part of their identity. all together, they’re nuisance personified. they’re the tumult at the far end of the pub, the same group of people you never fail to see on your instagram feed, the ones who book a pension in incheon the second the dates for the semestral break are released, and the ones whose group chat notifications total to more than a hundred. (they came like a package; a 7-in-1 offer, almost never without the others.)
 
by the time they graduated, they’re still as indivisible as ever. although it’s a patent change from before, especially with seongwu taking on the saturated industry, furthermore the various paths they’re taking, they keep constancy as much as possible through frequent contact.
 
(they don’t actually have an official name for themselves and decided to just take the name of their group chat out of convenience. it was conceived during broduce finals as glaring reminder to vote for certain trainees to make it into certain groups.)
 
 
 
out of all the wanna one members, sujin clicks with jaehwan the most. people say it’s the same wavelength of obnoxiousness, which is true and a little hard to admit especially when they’re the ones who has to witness the collective racket first-hand. even with the meagre amount of times sujin’s actually and actively interacted with wanna one, she’s always found it easy being around him.
 
the way they instantly bonded was a little unnerving on seongwu’s part (and quite frankly threatening in the Best Boy department), but it doesn’t trump the comfort it brings. the way sujin looks at ease and unconfined was a sight for sore eyes, especially being around someone who she doesn’t consistently meet. it’s a bond heavily reliant on inclination; familiarity built by how much their personalities come hand in hand.
 
even though sujin and jaehwan have exchanged phone numbers, and even went all the way to have personalized contact names, they never really bothered making use of it (the one time they did, it was only to inform sujin that seongwu stupidly left his phone at home, to which she nonchalantly replied with ok, thanks.) they concluded that their friendship is more on a Face To Face basis than anything else.
sujin’s relationship with the rest of wanna one is kept to a minimum. it’s a given that her relationship with seongwu started off at the latter part of their career, so sujin really didn’t have all the time nor convenience in the world to build a deep connection with every single one of them (although, given the chance, she would in a heartbeat.)
 
the members thoroughly adore sujin. seongwu is someone who deserves as much love the world could give and even though sujin can’t make up for the entirety of it, no one can deny how big of a role she plays. she’s become a constant in his life — someone he didn’t need to part with due to contractual matters. they’ve seen the way seongwu animatedly picks up his phone, the way his tone spikes a pitch higher talking about the funny thing she texted him, and the way his eyes light up in complete felicity whenever they’d facetime over breaks; they’ve seen the way seongwu looks at sujin like the way he marvels at the crowd. they’ve seen him fall in love (and that itself warrants more than enough adoration.)
 
it’s not only by seongwu association are they exceptionally fond of her; sujin’s snarky and loud and can finish a pizza slice in three bites. in the few times they’ve seen her in the flesh (which they always make sure to note that she looks prettier in real life than she does on the photo seongwu set as kakao homescreen), they’ve seen how casual she is with this whole situation — as if she’s not smack dab in the middle of and surrounded by some of the biggest names in the korean entertainment industry today. they’ve seen the way she laughs so heartily, the way she eagerly responds at the members’ quirks (she’s especially fond of jinyoung), and the way she returns seongwu’s affections when she thinks no one’s looking; they’ve seen the way she looks at seongwu and sees the dumb she went to college with than the ong seongwu he is to everyone else.














































 

lover
너의 그 사랑과
05
“EMOTIONAL ELOQUENCE RIGHTS!”
love interest, height and width must be 80
full name
 ong seongwu 옹성우
group
wanna one
BACKUP LOVE INT: ha sungwoon or kang daniel
 
PERSONALITY
 
ong seongwu is e.e. s with a fratboy tendency. he’s overconfident and obnoxious and has a humour that makes even the ones who can’t understand the joke laugh.
 
he’s a little too sentimental for his own good, has way too big an emotional capacity and speaks in words that makes the ambiguous seem less terrifying.
 
he’s foolish and pathetic and can’t do math. thinks he’s the , but is really just trying his best not to trip on his on foot. he likes to try out new things which just up a nationally broadcasted blunder.
 
he’s just someone who wants validation without being too obvious about it. someone who wants to feel as loved as much as he loves. someone who treasures each moment because he believes the split seconds are always the best memories often looked over.
TRIVIA
• sns handles include — and is limited to — osw_onge on instagram
• he’s a family-oriented person. he dedicates his success to them, taking them on trips, buying them a new house and giving everything he can to at least return a minimal part of what they’ve done for him.
• has questionable enthusiam towards spongebob conspiracy theories
 
LOVE STORY
 
              01
                     HOW
                             WE USED
                       TO BE 
sujin and seongwu met in college. they were first introduced by minju at one of the acting department’s freshmen welcoming parties after sujin was tricked into joining them (although it wasn’t precisely tricked as it is bribed with free beer.)  it was inevitable, their friendship, expected almost with the amount of connections and common ground they share. soon enough, seongwu’s friends became her friends and sujin’s trivial problems became his trivial problems and before they knew it, they’re taking roadtrips to gwangju together.
 
they’ve always been casual with one another; no funny business, purely platonic, defeated the complications of male/female friendships, you know the deal. all throughout college, no one associated han sujin and ong seongwu as anything beyond friends from the same group. they were close by association — and also by their shared tendency of never shutting the up  and not by intimacy. it was a kind of friendship that didn’t really need any sort of confidentiality to validate, or at least some personal sentiment to prove that they’re just as close as they make out to be. they were satisfied with the particular distance and no one really made a fuss to cross that line. they were just friends — no benefits, no fleeting crushes, just two hets and free booze.
 
soon enough they graduate, ong becomes a trainee, joins produce 101, and makes it into wanna one the rest is history.
 
 
02

HOW WE
STARTED
PART ONE.
 
(seongwu and sujin grew apart over the years. it’s essentially due to seongwu’s progressing career and maybe the fact that he had better things to fret about than losing contact with sujin of all people. and besides, not like she made an effort to keep in touch either — the last time she even recalls talking to seongwu was months after he signed with fantagio. 
 
this didn’t necessarily make them strangers, though; constant communication was never a fundamental in their friendship. it’s familiarity, they say, that kept them together even when they physically aren’t.)
 
it’s february 2018. wanna one were set for a three-day break in celebration of the chinese new year and seongwu decided to spend a day at a college friend’s wedding.
 
seongwu makes his entrance unannounced, surprising even the population who knew he was invited. it was easily the biggest joke of the year, how it seemed so far-fetched that hot shot ong seongwu would show up to a schoolmate’s wedding in the midst of his escalating fame. so when seongwu does show up, all clad in a tux and that Korea’s Big Star Glow, sujin only chortles.
 
“didn’t think mr. bigshot ong seongwu would show up.”
 
seongwu recognizes the deriding tone from anywhere. “still obnoxious?”
 
“still have a huge nose?”
 
“touché…” and they laugh. (familiarity, both recognizes. it’s where the ease and coziness rooted from.)
 
neither remembers the last time they’ve talked to each other in the flesh, let alone actually seen each other. it was profoundly shocking, how everything seems so different yet the same. how much difference a few years make yet the change wasn’t unfamiliar, as if the time lapse was simply nothing but an interlude before the real story begins. and it doesn’t help to be smack dab in the middle of such an overwhelming environment where romance and hope are teeming. it evokes a sense of nostalgia, the kind that draws you to bask in the wedding sonata and the stench of a million dreams coming true. so seongwu decides, he’ll make the best of this evening.
 
the wedding was the first of many. a catalyst, in a way, because ong seongwu and han sujin who were never personal talked. about life, about was was and what is and what it really feels to live life after the fantasy. ong seongwu and han sujin talked, and it’s how it all started.
 
they said good night to each other for the first time that night.
 
wanna one resume promotions, sujin returns to everyday mundanity, they begin to text each other (a continuous loop of seongwu popping a hello every after pre-recordings and sujin just going all can you hook me up with minhyun or something), wanna one announces their world tour.
 
sujin wasn’t really the quickest to catch news, but this she caught.
 
hey heard ur going on a world tour LOL
 

yeet 😺😺
you want anything
 

a feeble old white man with a green card <3
 

you’re so messed up sometimes
 

i try not to brag
 

LMFAOOO
wild idea what about a postcard
 

frm new york please.......
 

how soon can u deposit me money 😇😇
 

FORGET IT
 
(he ends up buying her a postcard from every stop.)
 
PART TWO.
 
(it’s been 5 months since they began texting each other on the regular, not like they’ve been keeping track. it became some sort of daily routine, a habit almost. and in that 5 months, catching up on the years lost has transitioned to knowing what they’re about to eat for lunch, except everyday. 
 
it’s july 2018; wanna one’s concert series is at full blast. at the rate they were going, seongwu could barely type in a message which consequently reduced their conversations to almost nothing.)
 
july 16, 2018. they just wrapped up their jakarta stop and made it back to the hotel a little after 1 am.
 
seongwu hears the door click shut in the middle of the night like he has for several consecutive times now. daniel’s developed the habit of sneaking out of their room every after the concert to spend the night at sungwoon’s. seongwu personally finds it offensive that daniel thinks he has no iota of idea, or that his attempt to tiptoe out of the room is anything short of prancing with tap shoes on.
 
maybe he’s just a little sick of the idea that daniel would leave him deserted and alone at this eeriely quiet hotel room with bad cable service. or,  maybe he’s just a little jealous that he has no one to sneak out for. and maybe, just maybe, he wants someone to listen to him and appease his worries in the way he wants to be heard and appeased. maybe.
 
seongwu’s never really handled maybe’s well and kind of drives him to make impetuous decisions as a way to make sense of the world. and maybe it’s why he decided to call sujin at o’ clock in the morning and deeply prayed she wouldn’t mind.
 
(she didn’t.)
 
seongwu and sujin spent the entire night talking on the phone discussing about the if’s and how’s of the world. it’s a little reminiscent of the first time they discussed something so existential, something so personal, so it ins
 
and seongwu thinks for a second that maybe this could lead to something (and seongwu, who acts to uncertainty with rashness, decides he’ll stay a little longer to watch it unfold.)
 
sujin passes out eight minutes before 5 and seongwu doesn’t hang up even daniel sneaks back into their room.
 
 
 
 
INTERMISSION
(chat snippets during the length of the world tour)
 
 
HONG KONG
 
craziest thing....... my niece is a wannable
 

💗am i her favorite💗💗
 

God no
thankfully
 

when they say betrayal come from those you least expect...
 

it up you big baby
btw can u ask for woojin to sign “stay in school jisoo” for me 😋😋😋
 

what’s it in for me
 

i’m celibate
 

and so? stop being stingy
 

HJKWFEJHFJFHE I DON’T GET YOUJGKTJK
 
 
TAIPEI / ONG DAY
 

5:39 PM

hello
 

I just took a
 

lovely
anyway do you know what day it is today ~~~~
 

a thursday....?
 

and what is particular abt this thursday 😛
 

it’s cloudier than usual...?
 

youre really bad at this
want a hint? 😽
 

not really
 

OH COME ON
 

LMAO aren’t you supposed to b occupied or smth or have you decided wasting my time is ur new profession
3 months in a cutthroat survival show to become my
 

i don’t like you
 

aw... sad.... rt if u cried


10:52 PM

seongwu
 

yeah?
 

happy birthday
 
 
MANILA
 

last day of world tour today TT
 

i’m not seeing any postcard .purchase proofs....
 

your concern is unnerving
 

WHAT DID YOU EXPECT ME TO SAY
 

“oh that’s sad” “you’re gonna miss your fans a lot” “:(”
 

a sad face??? raise the bar ong
 

its a reach when it comes to you
 

TAKE THE BACK
 

suddenly got selective vision cant see the message above LOL CRAZYYY
 

ONG SEONGWU
 
and many more.)
 
PART THREE.
 
(it’s been 7 months since they began texting each other on the regular, again, not like either has been excitingly keeping track. and in those 7 months, catching up has transitioned to habitual texting and habitual texting transitioned into phone calls at am in the morning when seongwu has just gotten back from a shooting and sujin is barely halfway through a plate due the next day.
 
it’s september 2018 and wanna one has finally concluded their world tour. swing decides throwing wanna one into every festival to ever exist months before their final comeback was a remotely genius idea.)
 
seongwu takes this an opportunity for sujin to finally see him up on stage — “so you’d know how much charisma you’re missing out on.” and invites her and the rest of their friends to one of the shows they’re set to perform at.
 
stingy
 

I LITERALLY BOUGHT YOU TICKETS
 

couldn’t you have done that for your solo concert!!!
 

YOU DIDNT EVEN CARE ABOUT US THEN
 

I CARED ABOUT MINHYUN?????
 

you literally have the same name as his sister
 

so
the more sujins the merrier
 
festival night rolls around. wanna one are on standby, their friends have settled on their seats and sujin is nowhere in sight.
 
seongwu frantically scans the crowd every three seconds and s can’t decide if this is amusing or plainly pathetic (and if it’s the latter, they’ll later bet if this beats out his previous record.) there’s an empty seat adjacent to minju and although he’s trying his best to mask the fret and disappointment, the uncontrollable fidgeting and Transparency Of It All just gives it away. it’s only when they’re called to position when a notification pops up.
 
it’s sujin 
 
bro ur lightstick expensive as
 
(he doesn’t remember the last time a sigh of relief felt so much like ecstacy.)
 
wanna one strides on stage and seongwu catches her from the corner of his eye smashing the lightstick against her palm in what looks like an attempt to activate the batteries. sujin belatedly realizes the familiar faces on stage and only comprehends the situation when light starts blasting from the speakers. seongwu hears her bellow his name at the scanty seconds of silence.
 
seongwu invites them backstage after. he introduces his friends to the rest of s one by one before eventually settling himself before sujin who grimaces at the complacent look on his face.
 
“so? finally realized how charismatic i am? captivated by my charms? gonna profess your undying love for me any second now?”
 
sujin’s tone drips with faux concern. “aww, to think you’re saying this consciously....”
 
“i can hear you.”
 
“it was meant to be heard.”
 
“i’m gonna stop this conversation now.”
 
sujin laughs at the immediate defeat. “good. now introduce me to your kpop boys.”
 
he follows suit and bites back a grin when sujin’s name rolls off his tongue so casually; familiar, a little like introducing your girlfriend to your friends, except his mind refuses to register it that way. jihoon lights up in recognition and exclaims before seongwu could shut him up.
 
“oh, yeah! the one seongwu hyung has been texting lately.”
 
there’s a collective reaction of incredulity from their friends and sujin slinks behind minju, refusing to meet eyes with anyone, especially the other man involved in this scandal. 
 
“you guys text?!”
 
“we text. we can text. it’s normal. people text. friends text.”
 
sungwoon interjects — “if my friend texted me at 2 in the morning, he’s not my friend anymore.”
 
sujin shifts uncomfortably at this atmosphere.
 
it would’ve warranted a more subdued response if not for the fact that it’s sujin and seongwu who are involved in it. while it’s not necessarily impossible to happen, it’s still unlikely especially since sujin can’t keep up with conversations for  and seongwu is too busy a person to have time to rhapsodize about art through kakao talk. it doesn’t help that their impression of the two still remains to be the one in college playfully spiteful and bounded and had no distinctive privacy.
 
no one drops the topic even when everyone files out of the tent and went their own ways.
 
(something about this whole situation conjures an odd and new sensation, something seongwu attributes to how they associated his name with sujin’s like it’s scandalous; like it’s teasing. but seongwu leaves it be he’s too occupied to comprehend any unwelcome emotions.)
 
later that night, he texts sujin (not like he hasn’t been.)
 

you home already?
 

naaah seoul bus system omfg their rounds take half a year now
i just got on one like.... half a minute ago
 

wait so ur still around the area??
 

unfortunately lol
 

wanna meet instead?
 

what the LMFAO
 

what
 

oh you’re serious
 

I AM
wouldn’t you hate making such a beautiful chilly night go to waste
   

ok first of all seoul always chilly as
second have you gone mental did you forget about ur wanna one status or what
 

i can do discreet :(
 

are you sure your gigantic nose won’t give u away :(
 

SCREW OFF
 

SKFJKFHJSHD LOL FINE
but somewhere super private bc i’m not rly keen on having wannabooboos flooding my ig comments w arson threats
 

DON’T CALL MY FANS WANNABOOBOOS EVER AGAIN
 

qghefg just send me the location baby
 

T__T
 
(this is the first, actual encounter sujin and seongwu had since the wedding. it’s a little foreign, sujin supposes, because while they’ve been unfailingly talking everyday for the past months and their relationship progressed with scary velocity, it’s only now that sujin registers she’s not just talking to her college friend ong seongwu. that this — whoever’s in front of her, snapping pictures with his camera — is the ong seongwu everyone recognizes.)
 
“really? naksan park? this is how you define discreet?”
 
“it’s o’ clock in the evening, no one really comes here anymore.”
 
sujin still feels awkward about earlier, even though she doesn’t understand why. it’s uncharacteristic of her to dwell on a little teasing, so she dismisses it almost as quick as she thinks about it.
 
sujin pulls on her coat tighter and wraps her arms around herself when a gush of cold air blows by. seongwu hears the friction of her hands rubbing against her coat and prods. “cold?”
 
“huh?” (it’s not the concern itself that stuns her — it’s the tone of concern. it’s not foreign to hear it from ong seongwu who’s always been attentive, but there is something in the lilt of his voice that shakes her. unfamiliarity, she claims, how everything he says sounds more alive.) “no, i can take it.”
 
seongwu chuckles at the casual rejection and settles himself on the ground, completely disappearing from plain sight. sujin mindlessly follows and plops closely next to seongwu to flaunt that no, that simple concern didn’t faze me. seongwu snaps a picture of her while unsuspecting but sujin hears the click before he could deny it.
 
“like the view?” she attempts to joke, but seongwu has his eyes glued to his camera for a questionable amount of seconds and sujin’s about to speak up when he cuts in — “you’re really pretty, you know that?” (sujin who’s in character would say of course i do, but the sujin who’s begin to waver at seongwu’s words even if it’s not the first time someone’s told her those things, just tentatively says thank you.)
 
expectedly, seongwu notices the switch of character and pokes fun at this. “who broke you?”
 
“i can say thank you. civil people say thank you.” (sujin just thanks God seongwu’s just as obnoxious as she is.)
 
the two of them spent the entire night talking and laughing to themselves. it’s effortless, sarcastic and unhesitant — it’s just like college, except everything else is different. their smiles aren’t grim, their stories are honest, their laughs are genuine and seongwu would sometimes see sujin move in slow motion.
 
sujin texts seongwu the moment she got home. they bid their good nights the second time that night.
 
 
 
 
                                         03
 
                           HOW WE
                           KNEW
                           WE WERE
                           IN LOVE
 
PART ONE.
 
seongwu would always make time to meet her whenever he gets back from an overseas schedule, which is almost always cut short because jisung would remind him of an early recording scheduled the next day. sujin doesn’t complain and actually encourages him to squander his time on more important things (to which seongwu hostilely responds with you’re important.) she doesn’t have the right to, not when seongwu belongs to one of the biggest boy groups in korea right now, so sujin completely understands their stolen time. and not like she’s in any position either — they’re just friends. 
 
their conversations gradually got slimmer with wanna one’s final comeback fast approaching. seongwu still tries to pop a text message every now and then and sujin would take a split second to respond. it started off strange, not getting a notification almost immediately, and she convinces herself that the looming disappointment is a byproduct of straying from the accustomed more than anything else. occassional turns to sparse, and sujin’s dejection feels a lot more personal. (she finds it so superficial to be hung up on something like this, especially when seongwu, of all people, doesn’t owe her time. so she decides for herself — she’ll reduce her replies to keep him focused on his upcoming promotions.)
 
it’s november 2018 and wanna one’s last release is crunching down to four days. seongwu plops himself at the back of the practice room when their instructor calls five and picks up his phone as soon as he settles down. he deflates the second he unlocks his phone.
 
minhyun catches the troubled look on seongwu’s face. “sujin didn’t reply?”
 
seongwu clicks his phone shut and tucks it back in his bag. “yeah.” 
 
he texted her three hours ago and he’d normally check back with a message to return. and ordinarily he wouldn’t mind; sujin’s probably just too occupied to attend to his texts. but it gets a little suspicious when it’s become a reccurring thing. 
 
“maybe she’s busy. it’s exam season isn’t it?”
 
he scoffs in contempt. “exam season isn’t in two weeks and busy? this girl sends me selfies in the middle of her lectures.”
 
minhyun raises his hands up in defense and stifles a chuckle (he knows seongwu’s quite a pathetic man but seeing him so disconcerted by this raises and sets the bar.) “you should’ve implemented girlfriend duties when you had the chance.”
 
seongwu almost chokes on his own bile. “she’s not my girlfriend.”
 
minhyun sits up from his position, “whatever you say.” and stalks out of the room, leaving Said Pathetic Man dumbfounded.
 
that night, seongwu texts her (again, not like he hasn’t been.)
 

what happened to our friendship pact >:(
 
sujin doesn’t reply until a few minutes later.
 
what friendship pact
 

the one where we reply as soon as possible
 

lol
 

everything alright with you?
 

no yeah just a little stressed frm uni like the usual
 

no really
 

i am serious
 

you’d always tell me when ur feeling exceptionally stressed tho.... 
 

well projects and research have really been time consuming lately
 

it’s me isn’t it
 

it’s not
 

you’re not bothering me you know that
 

i know

then act like it
 
 
neither replies that night, nor the next morning, nor the following days. it wasn’t an argument per say, but it did feel like one and neither did anything to resolve it. they let months and days of consistently chatting end that way. and not like it matters, sujin thinks again — who was she to take up his time like that?
 
PART TWO.
 
(wanna one releases their final album. sujin listens upon release but doesn’t congratulate him.)
 
sujin meets up with minju after so long. it’s impossible to schedule anything with minju now that she made use of her skills and actually got a job. sujin didn’t realize how much she missed her best friend until that day and just wanted to make the best of it by keeping things solely about themselves. but alas, the conversation ultimately veered to the topic about seongwu and her.
 
“what? that dude still hasn’t asked you for your hand in marriage?” minju says in between shoving a spoonful of rice into .
 
“who are we talking about?”
 
minju gawps at sujin like she’s lost her mind, except she has. she only shrugs at the condescending look and belatedly realizes when minju starts dancing to ing nayana.
 
“what the  of course not.”
 
“make it more obvious that you’re sad.”
 
“we’re not interested in each other that way, plus—” minju retreats to her seat when sujin shoots her down a look, “we haven’t been talking lately.”
 
“yeah, right.” the younger snorts.
 
sujin’s eye twitches at the instinctual disbelief and retorts by unlocking her phone and tossing it to minju. the latter goes through the dates with eyes wide. “oh for real.......”
 
“told you so.”
 
the reverie of being right is cut short when sujin hears the familiar click and instantly snaps her head to minju’s direction who’s sending the selfie she took to seongwu. sujin yelps for help but minju has too fat a thumb to miss the send button.
 
the tyrant types — having jokbal when spring breeze suddenly played. you sound so cool~
 
“this isn’t even spring breeze, this is ing exo — give me that!”
 
both freezes when a notification pops up.
 

video or it didn’t happen
 
minju cackles in complacent victory and hurls the phone back to sujin, who looks like she’s about to burst into tears any second now. she tucks the phone at the farthest corner of her bag for the rest of the evening.
 
it’s a minute past 10 when another message pops up. it’s from seongwu.
 

i’m still waiting on that video btw
 

my dog ate my phone
 

you don’t have a dog
 

i could if i wanted to
 

LOL spring breeze wasn’t playing was it
 

nope
 
(seongwu expected this: the curt, monotone answers. it’s gonna be hard to adjust to but it’s better than nothing.
 
he was about to reply when sujin beats him to it.)
 
which i personally think is the restaurant’s loss :/
they could’ve played soty when they had the chance
 

ur right... we should sue them for neglect of people’s rights
 

guess we’re quitting id for law school
 

HFEKJHFE LOL
 
there’s a pause. seongwu stares at his phone in anticipation and spots the speech bubble forming on sujin’s end. she waits for her message to send and when it doesn’t, he takes initiative.
 

i miss talking to you
 

me too
 
(they called each other that night and picked up on where they left.)
 
PART THREE.
 
the following weeks were a blur as it is vivid. seongwu enumerates all their upcoming activities and sujin whines to him about the workload her professer dumped on them. she’d still send him selfies during lectures, except this time seongwu tells her she looks pretty.
 
it’s december 2018, the night of the melon music awards. sujin and soojung are over at minju’s at what’s supposed to be a girls’ night out, but the booze and hot men that’ll disrespect them are taken out and traded for juice boxes and kpop boys with too much hair gel.
 
later in the evening, wanna one wins their second daesang and seongwu brings tears with his speech.
 
(there’s something about the way seongwu is with words. it’s raw, it’s earnest, it projects so much emotions at once. she hears more than gratitude, she hears more than years of ridicule coming to a close; she hears desperation of worth and finding it years later in the best possible way.
 
watching him stand there — as every kind of seongwu she’s ever known — evoked unknown feelings. sujin’s never understood the intricacies of emotions nor did she ever want to. but it’s a half past ten and someone she personally knows is at his highest right now, and there’s something about this reality sounding so ing magical that sujin thinks for a second she wouldn’t mind knowing.
 
her friends fight back the tears from falling and she was the only one who let it fall.)
 
sujin calls him later that night, a little over one in the morning. 
 
“hey,” her voice was soft, lulling, something akin to a whisper. there’s a vague sound of a crackle at the other end of the line.
 
“hey.” he says back, voice just as soft.
 
“watched mma earlier. you guys looked cool.”
 
“yeah? that’s it? no congratulatory commentary? no omona, seongwu oppa you’re so handsome even when you cry!
 
(seongwu sounds awfully annoying for someone who just cried on national television.)
 
“sob speeches still don’t you give the free pass to my compassion.”
 
“just trying my luck.” she hears him titter from the other line. there’s a brief moment of silence, although both knew it wasn’t signal to drop the call. they hear their breaths over the phone, the background noises from road traffic and bed sheets crumpling everytime they shift position.
 
sujin takes the initiative to continue.
 
“i get it, you know.” she threads unsurely.
 
“get what?”
 
“why people love you.” seongwu lets her continue.
 
“you’re like... this perfect guy, you know? it’s easier to name the things you at than the things you’re good at. you’re funny and like, you have a nice face to boot and you’ve got this ability to beguile the world with your poetic voodoo magic. you’ve also got this crazy beautiful voice and it’s soft and it’s warm and the calibre of your voice is— i can’t explain it— you’re just really good. and you’re pretty genuine with everything you do too, like people would look at you and think ah, what a filial and genuine handsome young man. when people look at me, they just think i’m a vapid narcissist. but all in all, i get it, you know, the hype surrounding you. like even i would pay load to have you complete my half heart. you’re just, you’re deserving of so much more than the world could give. believe me.
 
seongwu doesn’t speak even when he’s given the cue to continue. he can’t, not when he sees clarity and feels so sure about the world — about her. he’s known all this time; he knew sujin was never just anybody. and although that’s a given and everyone has been so unrepressed to him about it, seongwu wanted confirmation, he needed prompting from the world to tell him he’s right (and the world answers him certainty.)
 
“sujin?”
 
“hmm?”
 
“do you like me?”
 
what?” it’s accusing, her tone.
 
“i said, do you like me.”
 
“uhh... er... is this a trick question because i can’t tell....”
 
“i’m serious. do you like me?
 
“w- wait, are you asking me this because i rambled about how likable you are because your interpretation is awry—”
 
“just answer me, han sujin.”
 
sujin doesn’t know if she’s ever heard seongwu this stern and urgent, as if his voice is desperate to know. that if she doesn’t answer, he’ll never feel at ease.
 
but does she? does she like seongwu? sure, he turned out to be a much more imperative presence in her life than intended, and only realizes now that a day is never really a day without talking to him. she’s began to measure time by the hours seongwu takes before he gets to reply, began to wonder more about what seongwu would think of this, think of that, and began to depend on their midnight phone calls to assuage her worries. she’s began to look and picture the world with seongwu in it even if he’s just perpetually in message form (and she doesn’t really mind, not as long as he’s there.)
 
oh. oh .
 
“i mean, you’re a nice guy, appealing and sweet, and you’ve got this tone of concern that’s really unsettling. because like, you’re you and you’re ong seongwu and you’re easy to like— i mean adore, like admire and, it’s—”
 
“so you do.”
 
“wha— i didn’t even say anything!”
 
“you said i’m easy to like.”
 
“i said you’re unsettling, read between the lines.”
 
seongwu shushes her with a teasing cadence to his voice. “ssh, it’s okay, it’s okay. i think it’s cute that you’ve got a crush on me, like this feels very elementary but, it’s sweet.” he giggles to himself and drops his voice to a whisper, “i’ll keep this between the two of us, it’ll be our little secret.”
 
sujin feels the er wink at the other end of the line
 
she scoffs in clear contempt. “you’re funny— you’re a funny man. because like, wha— i didn’t even imply anything! i said you’re likable, doesn’t mean i like you. i said you’re ideally the man of people’s dreams, doesn’t mean you’re the man of my dreams! you’re so, you’re so ing annoying God! like even if i do— which i don’t— why would i, why would— it doesn’t matter!”
 
“all i hear is like, like, like, ong seongwu i am hopelessly in love with you. seongwu hears her grumble loudly and tries his best to hold back his guffaw.
 
“you know what — screw you ong. screw you and your gigantic nose and your inflated ego and— ugh! and so what? so what if i do! so what, so what if it miraculously turns out i do like you what— what’s it to you!”
 
sujin only registers what she said when she catches her breath. “wait, i—”
 
aw man, if that’s the case, then this is gonna be a problem.”
 
what problem.
 
“the problem is,” he smiles through his words “i have no choice but to make you my girlfriend.”
 
 
 
 
04
   
 
HOW WE ARE NOW
one of the most common misconceptions in the world is the feeling you get when you date an idol. it’s not all dreams fulfilled, not all luxury of time and love and liberty, it’s not all satisfaction.
 
(if anything, sujin wants to get out of this relationship.)
 
she likes seongwu, she does. even more than she actually thought. she’s always felt overwhelmed by emotions, but there’s something in the way seongwu loves and expresses love that keeps her still and unable to move, like she’s dumbstruck to the point that it’s hard to comprehend.
 
seongwu got a whole lot more expresssive and affectionate when they got together — he never forgets to bid good morning or goodnight (even if it’s three in the morning and sujin wouldn’t be awake in 5 hours), waxes cheesy poetics about her and sujin would threaten to block him, and sends an i love you every after the conversation.
 
sujin, on the other hand, is just as caustic, just as annoying, and even though she insists she’s just as emotionally constipated despite seongwu literally being her boyfriend, he senses the marginal difference in sentiment. sujin’s gotten significantly more comfortable too (which says a lot because sujin is comfortable) and manifests it through a sickly amount of aegyo, but seongwu is too far down his feelings to dislike anything sujin does.
 
sujin has never really been the type to demand for attention, and she still isn’t. even if seongwu insists that it’s not okay that he hasn’t been replying promptly or calling her as often, she doesn’t mind. she doesn’t mind at all because she knows. she knows his situation — he’s one of the most coveted names in the industry right now and with wanna one’s time continuously ticking, he has no time to spare on her. and she accepts this wholly.
 
she accepts it in a way that she doesn’t think she should even be in a relationship with him.
 
 
 
the first time sujin met the members as seongwu’s girlfriend was after they got back from hong kong. they’re throwing a small, personal celebration to commemorate finishing the mama installments and the awards they’ve accumulated over the week. wanna one, who are hyper aware of seongwu’s Prosperous Love Life, prompts him to invite sujin over.
 

hey come over we’re having a calorie fest
 

and this “we” you speak of is who exactly
 

my members, obviously
 

lol yeah right
 

is that a yes 😺
 

i’m not coming over to your apartment seongwu
  

but :( i promise i’ll keep it pg13 :(
or at least tuck daehwi and guanlin to sleep before we go further than that :(
   

SEONGWU WHAT THE LOL
 

so yes? 😌😌
 

no
 

why not!!! >:(
this is violation against boyfriend rights
 

off man you’re still big nosed ong for me
 

and you are my girlfrend who my members are dying to meet <3
 

they’ve met me already
 

not as my girlfriend
 

what’s the difference!!!
 

EVERYTHING?
oh come on please just one slice of pizza and you can take off ~~~
no wait
one slice then a kiss then you can take off
 

damn...... i’ve always wanted to know how it feels to kiss minhyun :/
 

i will ship that  back to nu’est dorms in a split second i have jonghyun on speed dial don’t test me
 

SHJFHFHJEF ur so fecken weird sometimes
  

weird and messed up... some would say we are a match made in heaven
anyway....?
   

i can’t it’s way too risky. this is ur apartment we’re talking about
ur crazy sasaengs could be outside w their binoculars and pesticides
 

they’re not we dealt with sorento 9821 back in march
 

DWHJHFHJFKEJGFHFJ
 

i’ll take that as a yes then hehe don’t dress up way too prettily you might attract attention
 

yeah like my plaid skirt would draw dispatch to ur apartment
 

its not that i’m worried about
i’m scared that jaehwan might start ogling at you :/
o man if only you’ve seen the way he reacted to the selfie you sent me last thursday like bro eyes off /my pretty girlfriend
 

shut up ong you’re exhausting my data
i’m on my way already
 

YEET
i love you
 
(seongwu sat and stood next to sujin the entire night and when they think no one’s looking, they’d lock fingers.)
 
 
 
the first time sujin felt hesitant about this relationship was a few days before new year’s. it’s an emotional time for wanna one’s fans and especially the boys themselves. whenever seongwu would go on and on about how he’s terrified of everything at this moment — terrified of the world, of the future, of how life will look like being apart from people he considers family — sujin feels a pang of guilt; a prickle that feels a lot like intrusion.
 
she hears him apologize profusely for not being attentive enough, for missing out on scheduled calls, for forgetting to send good night messsages when he comes fatigued from practice. she hears him say sorry more than he says hello. sujin hears him live up to what he calls an obligation which he didn’t need to attend to.
 
she knows it’s an move, now more than ever. he’s in pain and she’s probably one of few things that’s keeping him at bay (but sujin refuses to acknowledge this.) but it’s hard, suffocating, when she feels she’s become nothing but a load; that she’s only adding onto the already overwhelming pile of worries, that she’s only getting in between him and what really matters. it’s hard when she feels that he should only fix this sort of attention to people who deserve it, to people who’s gonna be with him until the ambiguity of always.
 
sujin feels like she’s burdening him.
 
she consults minju about this, who characteristically says she’s overthinking. of course, of course she is. minju tells her it’s her mind playing tricks, and that if she really knew seongwu, she’d know he treasures their relationship just as much as the others things. and if she knew seongwu, she should know she’s just as important as everything else.
 
for a short while, she’s alleviated.
 
it returns during the final concert — just as overwhelming, just as swamped.
 
seongwu invites sujin and his friends on the third day of their concert series. sujin has never felt or seen so much vehemence in one place; the despair was so palpable that she’s frightened too.

seongwu walks out on stage and performs his solo. sujin’s breath hitches at the first note. she’s immobile and quiet throughout the stretch of the perfomance and seongwu finishes with sujin in utter awe (love is a funny thing, she thinks, how it suppresses everything else just for that one moment.)
 
(sujin wants to laugh but no sound is coming out. she wants to laugh because it doesn’t make sense. it doesn’t make any sense that the boy standing there so beautifully is the boy she’s been talking on the phone with almost every night. that the boy who created magic on stage is the same boy who’s made her feel and taught her love. that the owner of the voice who sang to a fervent crowd is the same person who sings to her at night when he thinks she’s fallen asleep.
 
she wants to laugh because she doesn’t know if she deserves it. she doesn’t know if she deserves seongwu’s vast capability to love. she doesn’t know if she deserves ong seongwu who takes it upon himself to extol the value of her existence, ong seongwu who sends her voicemails every after lecture just so she’d feel his presence even when he’s not there, ong seongwu who would steal time just to let her know how much he loves her.
 
ong seongwu who loved so dearly — she doesn’t know if she deserves any of it.)
 
sujin goes home that night without saying goodbye and doesn’t attend the last day of therefore even if seongwu reserved her a seat next to his parents.
 
 
 
seongwu eventually finds out about sujin’s turmoil.
 
it’s a few day after therefore and he shows up to her apartment with the most annoying lopsided grin. he doesn’t waste a second to tell her off and rebuke her for all the thoughts that plagued her mind. he whips up this entire speech about her worth — both as a person and as his girlfriend — and grants her this certainty, this assurance she initially doubted would appease her. but now she’s standing in front of seongwu and hears him say he wants to wake up and have someone to say good morning to. she hears him say he wants someone to hold his hand even when it’s clammy, to tell him to shut up when he starts writing dissertations about the photo she sent, to lie to him and tell him everything’s okay when it isn’t. she hears him tell her he loves her with a magnitude neither of them could imagine.
 
(and when he does, sujin accepts defeat. she can deny everything in the world but her feelings for him.)
 
 
 
RELATIONSHIP TRIVIA
 
• they’re boring and have each other’s actual names as their contact names. while jaehwan’s out there nicknamed 귀여운 째니 in sujin’s grand list of contacts, seongwu’s set as 옹성우 (“not even an EMOJI?!” “not even a punctuation mark”)
 
• both are obnoxiously flirty with each other without realizing they’re even flirting or being obnoxious to begin with. #0011 옹성우’s the receiving end to most of it, especially when seongwu’s camping out in the group chat with spongebob essays and sujin sliding in with come here and be a geek with me 😛😽 every time someone would threaten to kick him out.
 
• sujin pulls the minhyunable card every chance she gets. both are perfectly aware that sujin means it as much as she meant robbing him once payday rolls but ong just goes along with it. minhyun eventually got a whiff of the recurring joke and plays along frighteningly well that one time ong got tipsy at a dinner and mindlessly texted sujin: “you love me right? not minhyun? Me right? ME?????? Ong seongwu ME???”
 
• sujin’s perpetually in denial of her affection. she’s clingy in ways she doesn’t think she is. she paints herself as this Rational Girlfriend who does rational things to keep famous boyfriend from pursuing irrational decisions and it goes as far as acknowledging his demanding career but that’s pretty much it. career wise she has it all covered, but sujin who’s dating ong seongwu as a person is whiny and loving and jealous and unexpectedly sweet that it boggles seongwu.
 
 sujin rejects all forms of selfish sentiments when it comes to dating seongwu. she refuses to cave to the idea that she’s affected by the public’s reaction towards her, or that there are also times when she’d yearn for seongwu’s physical presence when everything else is taking a toll on her. instead, she redirects all these pettiness to her being inconsiderate of seongwu and his job and his wants in life.
 
• no one talks about either’s dating history unless they need a reason to stretch a petty argument longer.
 
• so far, they’ve never had a relationship shattering argument. either they’re good at swallowing their pride or pasta discourse isn’t as consequential as they make it out to be.
 
 









 
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바꾼 상처 모두 태워 버려
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THREE LOL
FINAL WORDS

MAKE IT MAKE SENSE HOW AM I DONE LOL........... literally never completed an app since like....... 2015 crazy

ok lolololo majority of these r halfassed andi literally wrote the personalities today so yes, they are !


me about to make minhyun backup l/i: his sister is literally named sujin

clarifications LOL: i didnt add her brothers nd mom to the rs section bc they arent rly significant to their ~love story~~ !!!! but if u need me to i will!!! hehe just not know bc coding

follow daniel.k.here and get him 1m under 10 hours

literally percentage-ing  w1 x ong closeness like thats miserable im literally Wannabond Warrior

also ahhh!!! ill fix the margins nd widths of the chatrooms soon theyre kind fecked up rn

OMGGGG THIS IS SO BAD IM SORRY U HAVE TO READ THRU ALL OF THAT this is not an app this is wattpad fanfiction

im literally wannable

SCENE REQUESTS  hello

wanna one doesn
’t disband
this is kinda self indulgent but LOL most of the characters have mutual connections (~exbangwan mostly..... don’t know for teenpink but we’ll get there) and they bump into each other somehow and go “dating a non-celebrity too huh?” “should we start a dating a nugu club? let’s start recruitment with seventeen”
• since ong is the most rookie among the roster i think his dating reveal would draw more hate towards seongwu than the relationship itself or the ~idea of seongwu dating? since his relationship was disclosed at a pretty early stage (i’m assuming bc the story kick starts at early 2019 and they got together dec 2018!) and by knetz standards that’s considered treachery because while the fans are endlessly wailing about disbandment and wannabond and ongniel no longer ongnieling, ong’s too busy making out w someone kkk
 

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