So hey, it's been awhile since I posted a blog. I was so busy at work, feeling suicidal, depressed and sad these past several months. To tell you guys, honestly 2018 was the fastest yet saddest year for me so far. I've been through a lot. I lose friends, everything was so negative. That's why I dont bother opening this account because I'm so busy stressing my ing life. One of my New Year's Resolution is to stop thinking negatively. Yep, I always do that. Well, I'm a pessimistic person and thinking negative things is my forte. That was also the reason why my friends doesn't like to stay by my side because of it. So sad lol. But then, I was able to make friends... not offline friends but through online. Even though I feel so sad, still there are things that makes me smile like being a Kpop fan. Watching EXO videos and buying there merchandises are my kind of stress reliever. But hey, there's more.

I'm an anime fan since I was in grade school. I love Japan! I love Japanese people. I love everything about Japan. Last year, I was watching this anime entitled "Ao no Exorcist" or Blue Exorcist. I already knew this anime but I never watched it. But when I started watching this anime, I was like "Ok, I think i'm going back for being an Otaku." The amazing part on that was, I love the anime and also the opening song. I mean, everything about that anime. The OP 1 is "CORE PRIDE" by UVERworld. That's when it all started. I became a fan of that Jpop band recently, like 5 months ago because they're awesome asf!!!!

UVERworld is jpop/rock band since 2000, popular with their songs "D-tecnolife" as Bleach's 2nd Opening song. This band also have songs in animes of, My Hero Academia, Blue Exorcist, Blood+, etc. The latest, is the op song of The Promised Neverland which is "Touch Off".

I even made an instagram fanaccount for them. You can check it on (@uw_sofiyah). Posting stuffs related to them. THIS BAND MAKES ME HAPPY EVEN IF I AM SAD ALL THE TIME. I JUST CANT EXPRESS MY FEELINGS TOWARDS THEM THROUGH WORDS BUT UVERWORLD IS SUCH AN AMAZING BAND.

Well, One Ok Rock is also popular but still UVERworld is my favorite. I bought UVERworld's CDs and magazine. You know, to consider that you're a fan. Kidding. Because of them, I was able to make friends with Japanese people and tried my best to learn their language. How to read and write, tho it took me a lot of time. Even up until now, I'm still struggling but I can still communicate with them tho. Special mention, Seri-chan! She's the first person I talked about this band, and shes speaking in english. Also, Emi and Asami-chan! Ayumi-san who's also one of my favorite UVER mutual. They're a lot. Theres a language barrier but I love them.

This year, I'm planning to visit Japan. Hopefully, to attend UVERworld's Live House Tour, which is one of my goals this 2019 ♡

Fangirling is fine. I'm okay with it. Atleast, despite of being sad or feeling alone and unworthy. I can tell that, happiness is a choice. You can choose whatever makes you happy. And fangirling makes me happy even if its costs you a lot lols.

I'm still working... at night. Feeling lazy already but of course if you have money you can buy anything you want. I only have myself, I can't trust people anymore. They ended up leaving me behind. I know I have attitude problem and it's because i'm depressed, always problematic about anything. I do self-pity. I always find everything, negative. That's why they left. I'm okay of being alone besides, i'm already used to it. I just want to them to handle me at my best but also at my worst.

Good day! :)