Thought I wanted to put it here to remind me of this weird occurrence in the future that I once cried for the death of a character that I wrote.

To some of you, maybe this is a normal occurrence. But not to me, though.

I have teared up over character deaths in novels I read, some in fanfics. I have never teared up when I actually write about it.

But today, just a couple minutes ago, I sort of dropped a few tears after I wrote a death scene. I honestly don't like the way I write it, but when I actually imagined it as I was writing, I couldn't help but feel this weird, overwhelming feeling of loss that my heart just couldn't contain it. It was weirdly painful especially when the scene played over a hundred times in my head, made me want to sob like an ugly mess that I am. 

Damn those involuntary fat tears.

Well, I hope I can post the story soon. I planned to post it yesterday, but something made me thought of taking down all my fics and never post something again. Hopefully, nothing similar will ever happen in the future.