Honestly, didn't know if I wanted to post anything today. For a lot of us it will be very gloomy. Maybe some will look at the brighter side and find something to be happy about. For me I just feel very disconnected.

Before I go any further, just want to say that everyone grieves differently. I'm not trying to hate on the others for how they grieve. Also, (very important thing), DO NOT let anyone tell you that you have no right to grieve him. I literally hated this when people around me made insensitive comments like "oh he was just another artist." or "You're not even his family". Yes, we may not be blood related to him (or at least 99% or us are not) BUT we have every right to grieve Jonghyun, because in a way we connected to the most intimate part of him, his music. This is the legacy that he left us and we have every right to cherish it and feel whatever feelings we have. Sorry, just had to kind of rant about all the insentative people out there.

I didn't really post anything for when he passed beacuse I kind of felt out of place. I felt like I didn't really diserve to in a way, because I never got to meet him in person, or go to any concerts or buy any of his albums (because I when Shinee came out I was a kid and as an adult I have been a broke adult sorry fellow Shawols) so needless to say I felt like who am I even to post my feelings. I have since come to terms that even if I didn't get to meet him or go support his music live or by buying albums/merch, it is okay for me to show how I feel.

I guess this was just a post for those who can relate don't feel like you have to hide your feelings and allow yourself to grieve.

Jonghyun, you did well. Please be happy and healthy up in heaven and look after the Shinee members. Please know that we will always love you. Please, believe in our words, tears, smiles, laughs, they are all for you.