Hello, cupcakes! 

Back at it again with another blog :)

There are many ships in life but the best ship is friendship.

AHA that's a line I learned in one of my english classes.

So, let's talk about friendship. 

I have 4 best friends and honestly, I think we're falling apart. Oh no oh no, this some tea people. 

Yeah but anyways, I have 4 best friends. One of them is a guy and the rest of them are girls. The guy moved to another school earlier this year and I should have seen it coming but due to the distance, we don't really talk much anymore. He's busy and it's wrong, I know, but I wish he would make time for me since I make time for him when he needs to talk to someone. No, I don't have a crush on him - he's like a brother to me. An annoying brother who i wish to strangle some times. 

Next, me best friend who is in the same class as me. She's super sassy but adorable at times. She supports me a lot and always gives random hugs. She even defended me once when one of our friends were talking about me behind my back (partly my fault, I admit that I did a few things that i shouldn't have and have since tried to make it up tot them). But she had her own group of friends, her best friends - her squad? Yeah, that's what I call them. They're not my best friends but we hang out in the early morning and for recess since she's there. It's weird isn't it? My best friend has other best friends that I'm not best friends with AHA COMPLICATED. 

Next is my 2 other best friends who are both in another class for me but they both of them are classmates. We don't really get to talk that much expect for in between classes and after school. There's like this distance that I noticed but I try to ignore it. Both of them are great! But there's still some things I don't talk about to them since we have pretty different opinions on certain subjects. The four of us, the girls, we're pretty much best friends with each other. But the rest of them have like their own groups to return to while I'm just... There?

It just feels like I'm losing all of them and I don't really like to feel that way. I do try to make time for all of them but... Do you sometimes feels like they don't make the time for you? Like... You're a second option? I don't know. It's bad enough that I'm thinking such thoughts when these people are suppose to be the best people in my life right now.

It's high school, nothing's easy.