Yesterday I took my baby— my pet chihuahua to the vet because he wasn’t feeling well. And when I took him there the Dr. said that he’s old and probably has kidney failure and wouldn’t make it. He said there were two options

1. Do a blood sample and leave him over night with fluids to see if it’ll help improve his health 

or 

2. Put him down.

I was in tears after hearing that it was nearing the end of his life. Today on my way to school I got a message from the Dr telling me about my dog Snicker’s blood results and he told me that he had kidney failure and his liver wasn’t working and that my Snicker was basically falling apart and that he’s probably suffering. At this point I broke down on the way to school, in class, and going home. 

Whenever I came home from school he was always there to greet me and today when I went through my door and didn’t see him there it hit me that he won’t be there anymore greeting me. 

When I told my mom about the Dr’s results for Snicker she cried with me and told me it’s time to put him down so that he won’t have to suffer and can go in peace. I’ve had my dog since I was 8-9 years old when I was in the fourth grade and now I’m in my third year of college. He’s been a part of our family for about 11 years and it’s so hard to let him go. He’s like my baby. And I can’t believe he’s going to be gone. Me mom and I are going back to the pet clinic to say our last goodbyes to him before they put him down. 

I just feel feel like my life is falling apart and I’m having all these emotions run through my body right now and just needed to write this somewhere to let my feelings out instead of holding it in like what I usually do. I really don’t want to let him go, but I don’t want him to have to suffer any longer either. This decision was such a hard decision to make and I hope that my Snicker will be in peace after the procedure. 

If you’ve come to the end of this blog post I just wanted to say thank you for reading this.