After months of complete and utter silent desire, I feel as if i'm about to go crazy.

My friends all know, but they keep teasing me about it.

And it's not a major problem or anything.... It's a guy.

Last year, I was in his class and i was so caught up in kpop that I never noticed him.

During November though, i started to like him, and now, in year 10, I'm not taking the same classes as him most of the time.

When I hadn't started liking him, I had a dream that he was my boyfriend, and when i woke up i was like 'ew.', but now, i would give anything to have that dream again.

He's a most of the time, and he's part of the popular, wild group, and he's the complete opposite of me.

Not in everything though.

he's so dedicated to his music and he's actually really smart if you get to know him, and he jokes around all the time (sometimes rude jokes) and he even takes the same train as me.

I'm content just sitting in the same goddamn train or room as him so all i need is for him to stay there longer.

I'm actually going crazy.

When i see him boarding my train i smile like crazy!

But, everyone says he's a and not worth liking, but i can't help it.

He's amazing.

One of my best friends hate him and they always get into fights.

He calls her fat, and that makes me feel like because i'm bigger than her,

But no matter how much i want to hate him, i just can't.

He's perfect in the sense that he's imperfect.

he's perfect in the sense that I can't have him.