hello.. it has been a long time.. 

   Now, i'm having a sem break for 3 month.. I just realised that I actually was nobody. Everyone must know right that now, i'm taking a degree? before taking a degree, I have friend from elementery school,secondary school, high school and last matriculation. when we add year of ss and hs, we got 5 years right? 5 years is quite long time and I have friends that I thought we were close enough.. we were going to school together, we got a same class, some of them are going the same kinderganden and elementary school, matriculation l,university with me..

    so, we were friends about 12 + year. friends that I talk right now are about 5 people and among them there is one person that is my very very bestfriend since ss and hs but actually she for her I am nobody.

    so, this holiday, I got a free time and going back to my house.. same with them.. so, when we had free time, we will meet but actually they always go out together without me and post it in media social.. I feel so sad.. and I when I ride a car with them, I just know that, they already find a part time job.. that time, I feel really dumb because I don't know what they are talking about and why they not asking me to find a part time job together.. 

      other than that, I want to go to my friend house and I and other one friend don't has transport. my bestfriend said she had a motocycle.. I thought it's okay because my friend house are not really far. the rest of my friends said to my bestfriend to choose which want she gonna take to my friend house.. and guess what, she choose the other friend and not me.. during that time, I am really sure I was the only one think that they are my close friend but actually not. during their birthday, I was the only want really excited to wish them but during my birthday there is no one wish me.. I feel so sad.. but I don't have any friends exept them, my matriculation and my degree friends