Emotionally tired, mentally tired, and lastly tired all around. I felt like there’s no meaning to live life the way you wanted to. Constantly worried about others say nor about you. Getting judged on what you want to do in life rather finding a job on your hobbies  Feeling like being six feet under was the better option than breathing another take in this world. I mean we all been in this spot right? Where do you think it's just you versus the world on itself, right? Being in a lifeboat full of your negativity in a black sea, waiting for your death. Battling all the battles you put up though. The constant battles of hardship and the acknowledgment of your parents, peers, etc. The voices of your conscience saying NO! THAT’S NOT ENOUGH!  WORK HARDER! BE BETTER! WHY GIVE UP? YOU WON'T BE ANY BETTER!

The voices say as they swirl around me lately. The monsters that constantly keep me up at night, The mental battles that keep my anxiety up. The acknowledgment of my self-worth and the weak emotional state that I'm in. I constantly battle myself to not think about anything, and to not feel anything, They say "Emotions are for weak" and they were right. But we're humans, we have our weak moments and our strength. Well, not today. 

Lately, being myself is hard. Maintaining a “personality” is hard when mental battles, the thoughts of suicide, and the thoughts of self-worth constantly flooded my thoughts with emotions like anxiety, angst, etc. Most of all emotions are self-pity for myself, rather being a bigger person and telling myself that I am worthy of being on this earth. Meanwhile, I’m in the corner of the room, constantly reminding myself that negatively will always come back.

I’m tired of it all, always telling myself that life will give you a chance, and friends, family, etc will help you. I tried it all, telling myself that happiness is key and not trying to put my heart on my sleeve when all I do is cry and look at how pathetic I am as a human being.

And DISCLAIMER: I know that death is not always the answer when it comes to these situations and it should not be taken lightly but I feel like it's the best option to go therapy, etc if you have these problems.

But the question of the day would be If you had so much misery happening, wouldn't you want to be out of your misery? 

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