This is my first time doing a blog here but I'm still reeling over my billboard music awards experience. SO yeah if you're wondering why I don't have any new content we can blame it on that. Okay so fair warning this may be all over the place and I know it's a litte late but work kicked my and so I'm barely writing everything down now. Ok so first off OMG!!! I  will forever be on TV I was focused on in the crowd after they announced the top social artist awards the camera focuses on the boys then pans to the crowd and lo and behold my tall screaming fangirling face is on TV!!! Lol >.<

Wondering how I got there? I had initially bought tickets but the tickets available would only let you sit on the bleachers and not on the actual floor where the celebrities were and so I applied to be a seat filler. It was a long nerve wracking process but I'm happy I was selected because it was the best time of my life!!! First were all gathered in a holding section where they strictly prohibited any phones at all. the show started at 5pm but the crew said they were going to turn away people after 2pm so the plan was to be there early. As I was with a group of my friends we ended up getting there at 11am and the line for the seatfiller/pit and red carpet was already long with people waiting since 6am in line. I was losing hope that we were even gonna make it because they only need a certain amount of people as seat fillers.

Thankfully my friend walked up to the front to look for her sister and a crew member said we need you and your sister for the Janet Jackson perfomance to be out front. WIth her quick thinking she told the crew member there were more of us at the end of the line and so they plucked us out of the line and made us go in earlier. Thank our lucky stars.

We went through the metal detector and the whole process this with us not having anything to eat ahd were asked to wait til 5pm when we were going to be in the holding area. 5pm came and we were brought into the garden arena at the very back by the production cameras mixers we were right at the hallway where the stars were coming in through. We were briefed that as seat filler if the talents leave their seats during commercial to hang out at the lounge, party in the back or even just go to the rest room our job is to take their seats so when the camera pans the crowd would look full still. We were told not to say HI MOM!!! to the camera if you do get a camera on you and no talking to the celebs until they talked to you.

I got placed in 5 different areas. First being across Dj Khalid and the chainsmokers during the Dua Lipa performance who I'm gonna admit being too much of a kpop trash I had no idea who she was. Then I found out later on that I was sat next to DJ Mustard. Yeah again I had no idea he was until i googled him and found out he was a double platinum rapper. I'm horrified at this point why? Because on my way to that seat I passed right in front of the boys during the first commercial break I thought i was going to go around but the crew member ushered me right in front of them and the first thing i noticed was Jin giving a flying kiss to the crowd on the left side of the arena which was where i was standing and i had to hold myself back from fangirling and cathing the flying kiss for myself lest they kick me out as a seat filler for fangirling too much. I was standing next to Tae because there were a lot of human traffic and I was sneaking glances at him because her was too perfect and again internally dying at this point. I finally got to my seat and I just smiled at DJ mustard tentatively while i sat next to him and basically just ignored him the whole time as i enjoyed the performance whilst sneaking glances at BTS.

Everything was a blur after that I sat next to Patrick starr one of my favorite youtube makeup artists and the long skirt of his gown got caught under my chair so i helped him as he sat down and then told him i loved his videos quietly he turns to me with a big smile and introduced himself then I introduced myself hastily as well. Then I sat 3 seats away frrom where my queen Ciara was standing at the podium i was mesmerized at how beautiful she was up close. as she got down from hosting Tyra was there giving her a hug and they had small talk and I've loved tyra since I was a teen and let me tell you your girl was once again shook.

On my third time being seated, I finally saw my friend who was seated four rows behind BTS on the right side of the stage while BTS was on the center of the stage, we only have about 2-3 minutes to move between the crowd to get to wherever assigned seats were. As I was walking more like running to wherever the crew was pointed there were a lot of people going to and from their seats so there was a little bit of traffic. And guess what I was in front of the right side of the stage with 3 shorter girls in front of me and they were all ARMY fangirls, Namjoon then chose that moment to fo to the rest room. The girls in front of me squealed while I could oly stare maybe in shock as I could only internally fangirl I was trying my best to be a good seat filler so I don't get kicked out. I kept saying dont fangirl too much in my head dont talk to them unless they talk to you over and over again in my head. The girls in front of me all squealed 'Hi RM, Hi Namjoon!' I looked at his face which was half a foot in front of me at this point and he was trying hard to just look at the floor shyly and not make any eye contact on his way to the rest room. But because we were all stuck a lot of people ushering back and forth he heard the girls but they had already left leaving me in front of him when he finally looked up he looks at me and quickly looks back down and shyly says 'HI!' as he smiled shyly his dimples prominent on his face. And let me tell you he is taller than me in 3 inch heels and I'm 5'8" so his head was slighly lowered again in his effort to not make eye contact.

Your girl was shook!!! to say the least but I had to go to my assigned seat at the time and I was so sad that I didnt have my phone at the time and i couldn't let my friends know as they were somewhere in the arena being seat fillers too. On the next commercial break I ended up being seated next to my friend who actually introduced me to all of these the whole seat filler thing I mean. So I was 4 rows behind the boys on the right and lo and behold they announce the top social artist award and I was so happy I was seated there with my best friend fangirling while they win. At this point I had no idea that the camera had panned to us but being the tall girl I was caught while the camera panned to us as i finally was able to let my inner fangirl out and scream my heart out for the boys. My friend and I were so loud and we were the only ARMY's that were loud out front and sending finger hearts and screaming in the front row that even Jhope noticed us and pointed at us while Namjoon was accepting their award. We gave him finger hearts and he gave us a heart back. We were both so thrilled.

After this I was seated next to my best friend for the rest of the show and when they performed, I only remembered bits and pieces I could only remember taking out my keychain army bomb and singing the fanchants at the top of my lungs. I think my brain just shut down after I saw Jimin my bias and Jungkook's abs. I think my brain just out, out of self preservation. I legit could not remember most of the performance until I watched it again when we got to our hotel. We were all so hungry having not eaten that day we went to a korean bbq after and exchanged stories. It was my first vegas experience but it was also the best experience of my life. A really nice army took a picture of my friends and i as we sat on the seats of the boys and sent it over to us on twitter as we didnt have our phones with us. 

I kept telling my friends it feels like a dream like it wasn't real. But because I was actually caught on TV and have very few but memorable photos in the arena and my friends were there with me, it took a few days to actually sink in that I had I was that close to the boys and that one of them even said Hi. It was so amazing that now two weeks later I'm still on cloud 9. I mean how many fans actually get to be that close to them and given that opportunity?!?

I can't wait to go to all their concerts. I was lucky enough to get tickets to each city so I definitely can't wait.