It's about my accident a few weeks ago (previous blog). I'm kinda getting over it.

But suddenly the motorcycle's rider show up at my work and looking for me. I wasn't around, so my boss just keeps sending him away and told him to just call me. don't show up here (at my workplace). But yesterday he showed up again right before I get ready to go home. So, I talked to him and since the doctor didn't really do anything to his 'twisted' arm, he would like to get a massage somewhere else but no money. So, he asked for money from me like around 30. I called my dad since he was the one who took care of everything last time. I was very surprised when he told me he already gave the rider like 500 after he sent the rider to the hospital on that day. No wonder after that day when I asked my dad, he said the rider never call. it upset me that he didn't tell me that he already paid the rider.  he told me not to give money to the rider since he already gave lots. my boss also agreed with my dad. but I still feel bad and secretly gave him 50. he told me that would be last time he comes see me (which I hope so too).  after he left, my boss asked if I gave him anything. I lied and said no. I feel bad lying to my boss. when I came home, my parents asked about it and like my boss they asked if I gave him anything. and yeah, I lied again. I gave my money to my dad back but I still feel bad lying to him and my mom.

I don't know if I did a right thing. I feel bad for the rider, I feel bad for my parents. I want to tell someone but I couldn't tell my sisters or bro. I just don't know anymore.

right now I feel like I'm in a box and had been compressed from every direction.