I don't know but, I always have this ty feeling everytime I tried to do something I never did before. I find it difficult to talk with other people, I also find it difficult to tell them what I feel like, I can't even ing complain to someone whose having some loose screws in the head. I can't even ing tell them what I want and hate. I'm so afraid of what will people say once I started opening this damn mouth. I mean, its so hard to open up. Its so hard to find people to trust. One time, I did try to join discussion with my classmates. We were ask to share some thoughts and opinion about a certain issue and then when I finally try to give them how my ing mind works they will all shut me out and gives me the feeling of "u don't u dare start" You know what hurts to the core? Its when u're ing trying but damn people wouldn't give u a chance. 

I ing hate everyone they always make me feel like .