Hey guys~

It’s been a long time!

Actually it’s been more than two years since the last time I really did anything. I kinda feel guilty for disappearing for so long. The thing is, during this two years as some of you might know, I've been living in Korea and well, living in Korea made things different during those two years.

Different from my usual life, of course, with lot of works, lot of activities and lot of travels, but it isn’t such a problem for me. I could say this was what put a stop on my stories. It would be a lie though. It played a part, for sure, but it wasn’t the main reason.

Living in Seoul made me think again and again all over about “why do I write” and why do I write about “them”. Them is DB5K, as a band as well as Koreans artists.

“Why do I write about them?”

The first thing I noticed is that they don't really care about my babies there. They are outdated (probably too old for the idols they are still supposed to be) and they have no future (even before Yoochun’s scandal, I could feel this). The kpop scene in Korea is very crowded, following trends and it’s hard for a group to stay on top for more than few years. DB5K were on top. They’re not trendy any more. Of course everybody knows about them and many people I met admitted that they ‘used to be’ fans, but people are very surprised they still have ‘fans’ following them or even caring about them nowadays.

Sure, they still have fans and I won’t lie, the simultaneous extinction of international Cassies specie had a role too. However, living every day in this kind of environment didn’t make me think of writing as much as I used to.

What I write (and want to write) is fiction, fan-fiction, where I include them to create a mix with my own vision, experience and imagination. Although it isn’t –can’t be – real, I want it to be somehow realistic. I do that by using everything I know about Korean culture to create a background, never too present, but always there.

As I lived in Korea, I changed and my knowledge did too. I’m no expert about Koreans culture in two years, yet I had time to discover faced many sides of it, from the everyday life to education, work or music field. Consequently it influenced what I could write about them, Koreans, their country, their city and their culture… for better or for worse.

Don’t take me wrong, I liked my experience in Korea as a whole, but it’s impossible to like every side of a culture or country and facing those sides every day, I couldn’t really accept some bad sides like I did when I was living out of the country. I didn’t manage to keep my mind away from this influence whenever I tried to write. I guessed people didn’t want to read about it and I didn’t want to write it either.

And there I stayed for months. Feeling guilty, trying and starting hundreds of new plots without success.

Now that I finally put an end into this experience, I can tell the main thing might be that I didn't find any will to write during that time because I lacked the distance.

Now, I plan to try again, with hope that there are still some people ready to read about my forgotten babies.

So… SEE YOU SOON!!!