I love my friend. Let's call her V. 

V is talented in music (can play the guitar and bass guitar did bands and made songs when we were younger), smart (she was in the same first section classes with me up until her being a lesbian became common knowledge in school and she got disciplined over some behavior in school. She also went to a really prestigious university in the PH), athletic (she is better at softball but was kicked off the team since she couldn't attend practice over the fact she was rebelling at that time // She also played second string for her university's basketball team but never got to be first string due to bullying and behavioural issues) and good looking (she is a knock out as a woman and as a more masculine look took over, she was still a knock out too. She's y and athletic until now - I got to become obese type 2 but she kept our original weight class). She is artistic (she is loads better at writing than me) and can draw. If she wanted to, she could have become a webtoon artist. She is from a well off family (but they are against her being a lesbian despite the fact that her dad is biual and her mom was a former lesbian). She got beat up by her homophobic money hungry little brother once. 

She's always had a problem keeping a relationship longer than two years. She always poured her heart and was dependent on them. Then when the bubble bursts, she cheats. And the cycle continues. 

But she has a huge aversion to change. She is currently living in the same condo as her ex and is dating another person who is also dating someone else. 

Sounds like a drama or an angst fic. 

This is why my life, although very mundane, is full of stories I can weave. 

It's because I have been trying to save one person from suicide since Day 1 of our friendship. 

I was never good with dealing with people crying and I think I have my own issues too (can't cry for normal reasons - bursts out in tears at random times ToT) I account this hardship with the fact that I am an empath and for the most time of my life, I was around someone who was going through so much personal that it affected my personality development. 

Still I made some really terrific friends in college and then after. I got complacent with our friendship. I got to talk to her again when I was in between houses and she let me stay in their condo for a bit. It was like walking on eggshells all that time. I got to talk to her ex (they were still together then) and I thought my friend was in the wrong. But it turns out, the other girl pushed her away when she was going through an extreme episode in her life. 

So there, I am a friend. 

I don't know what to say to her most of the time. I just keep telling her that no one quits this team. She told me that just in case, thanks for everything. 

I never thought those words could make my acid reflux act up. But it did. 

I don't want to loose my friend just because life is too hard for her to life. 

I am still not over Jonghyun and loosing her would just destroy me for sure. 

All I can do is pray for her. And share my weird jokes for her. 

What else can you do when the person who is barely hanging on tells you that everything that used to help her feel better is not helping at all. 

I told her to call me in the middle of the night if she needed me. I would skip on over and go be with her. (I know where she lives now at least) 

Do you know anyone who is the same as my friend? How did you make them feel better? Is there really nothing that we can do?