Yay? Nay?

Everyone, I have a good news yet bad news for myself. For me tho. 

Our school have a student exchange program, just like my latest story lol. We are allowed to choose between Japan, South Korea, Europe, London and a few places more that I can't remember. Obviously I really want to go to South Korea. For South Korea, there's 2 program, to Busan and Seoul. I don't know which progam is going to which place but I choose the June one rather than the November because my SPM is on November. I really want to go as I really want to experience life as exchange student.

I told my mum and dad about it and they encouraged me to go. They said that it's a chance that I won't get anymore. I was so excited but then I felt bad on the same day. I felt guilty also because my mum, my sister and my brother never had the chance to ride on a aeroplane and I'm doing that alone without them. I'm not sure I'll go or not because there's a big possibility that there are no teachers that accompany us. It'll be dangerous because I've never ride an aeroplane before nor went to overseas before. 

So, I'm not sure how things are going so I'm going to meet with the teacher when I find the time.

And yay! I'm going for a family vacation this weekend after a long time. I'm so excited but the exciment was broke when my mum said that my 'cousin' will follow together with her husband and her children. I don't see her as my cousin though. I see her as a stranger. I went through a lot of things and problems because of her. My social anxiety, depression and more mental health problems are mostly because of her. I have bulimia and anorexia because of her also. 

You all must be wondering what she did to me right? I got verbally abused by her since the age 10 and till now. I couldn't stand up for myself and no one stand up for me. I'm still fighting alone and it's painful and hurts. I want to run away and just die, to be honest. I have no where to go. And yes, the story With You is based on me. Only Mo Yeon's characters though. I have no boyfriends lol. 

I feel like dying and no one knows about it. They don't understand at all.

Thank you for reading this trash.

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Kurottoki #1
It's cool that you're taking the opportunity and I think you shouldn't feel bad for your family no being able to experience what you're about to experience. Just think of it as experiencing it in behalf of your family and plus your mom is happy and supportive of you so I think that's a really great thing. :D

It might be wishful of me to say this, given the fact that I was nervous myself to ride a plane alone for the first time and I'm still a minor with no adult to guide me hahaha but I swear it's gonna be a fun ride, except for the part where your ears start ringing because of the air pressure haha just relax and enjoy the ride~

Lastly, you shouldn't pay much attention to that cousin of yours, I bet she's just venting out her frustrations and insecurities in life. You can do it ^^
As Hermann Hesse said, "If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is a part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us." So basically, your cousin must hate that part of you because you carry it on better than she ever could. Have confidence in yourself. Fighting~ :D
Aryaprava_1993- #2
first of all congrats on the good news..hope u enjoy it^^
and don`t be sad for someone who does not worth it...
don`t give up..u have so many ppl 'with you' XD
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