Am I..Jealous..? v.v

Okay Lately I been Getting these Feeling's I dont know if it's because I have No Boyfriend..or love life. It's...DOnt jUDGE ME OR ANYTHING BUT...

I sometimes try and look for Fanfiction's Concerning "African American/ Asian Men" I find Only like Few...and some arent so greeat, to get me pumped up. I want some that aren't so fast on getting into the UAL parts or are very romantic,scary,ect

gah i was reading few fan fiction that has sub character's that were jamacan or african american, BUT, they dont get a role in the love affair with a asian man or what not...Im Jealous...? 

IS WHY MY HEART ACHES when i see my BIA'S Yoochun or Taemin or Daesung with a asian girl, Am I Racist??? I reaqlly Dont Want to be...All I wish are for More fics. I'm trying my best lord knows i am but i guess fictions arent my fortae.

Asking for interacial Fictions On a ASIAN Fanfic site is like finding a needle in a hay stack. Then Getting stabbed with it when you dont see what you really like...so i just look at fics..doesnt satifiy me...-sigh- Winglin Doesnt have much either. I do See some with American Caucasian Women, and Not as much Latin/Mexcian Fanfics Just like African American Fics.

HEH You Might think i'm over reacting...I Might BE...But...WHen you look at it...all the stereotypes. Hits me hard and i think...god why am i chasing guys who wouldn't possibley date me. Well All I know Im Not all the stereotypes they set out in the movies for african american women/men:

1. NOT Ghetto.

2. NOT so very LOUD, I can be only with my friends!

3. MY Hair is not always nappy...Damn Straight it ain't nappy, I GO natural THANK YOU >.<

4. Desperate...They saw we only stick with african american men, NOT True. Look at me I have a thing for Asian Men (Indonesian -sp?- Malaysian -sp??- Korean, japanese, Chinese, Vietnamese, Thai, Filipino) Some call Me Racist For like asian men only, which i dont just likie asian men. I like , African american men Caucasian Men and hispanic men. it all depends (No matter what race he is) Just have the personality. 

But Like I said, Am I Just a Hurt....Jealous???

DO I need a Life??

WHy is it when people make fun of asian Culture, I get Easily ticked off....Obsessed???

Huh...IDK..Im Not otaku...Am I?? a Wannabe?

v.v I needed to get this out i actually was...No im not a baby but the feeling in my heart said i needed release or else I'll end up in a heap of tears....

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Seoulful #1
I wholeheartedly agree with BriaNoelle. The only thing we can do on this site is boost up the number of fics. Out in the real world, we have to show them that we are different from that stereotype. I am not Black, but I am Hispanic - so I can totally empathize with you.
Nanako #2
oooh i kno how u feel chingu T.T i started my fic but cant seem to get it off firts stance and it doesnt help wen some of my favourite idols drop hits that they like the CHOCOLATE but dont act on it ugh so no ur not strange ur a lover of good THANG ^.^
AbriMathos #3
Just because this is happening doesn't AT ALL mean anything is wrong with you. It just means you're looking in the wrong places. I've been finding some nice ones on here. I also read this blog, blasiannarrative.blogspot.com. It's a bit adult but you begin to learn a lot about all kinds of Asian/Black relations. I'm telling you now, they have now on there (something they didn't have before) but you can always skip those articles. Also read the comments! The women on that sight KNOW what they're talking about. They are researchers, writers, first-hand experiments of these things.

I don't get upset when people throw around "Otaku" or "Koreaboo" around me because I know I'm not that. I don't want to be Japanese or Korean. I'm perfectly fine the way I am, black, just a bit on the light side. I love the way I am and I wouldn't want to change my skin tone or eye shape for any one.

You maybe hurt like I am about not finding more ambw fics that are mature but that is exactly when you make your own. Doesn't have to be a whole story, just one-shots. Then from there you can build on.
lil-eunchan #4
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fhdspoghdopsnhodsjhpsdjgopds; OF COURSE YOU'RE NOT AN OTAKU OR A WANNABE. YOU'RE YOU, AND IF SOMEONE SAYS OTHERWISE, IMA BEAT THEM. D<
JessaAndHerAddiction #5
And of course you can always message me about these things sweetie xDDD
JessaAndHerAddiction #6
No Dear..... sometimes we feel like this because we want something too much... and when you don't get it we become depress slowly and think that there's something wrong about everything....

What you need maybe is to take a break from the things that are making you feel this way....

OR.... you know that you can always ask me to write a private FIC for you sweety....


I'm your friend and I can and will support you in every possible way....

Juat tell me about these things that bothers you okay?


*HUGS*
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