I'm afraid and I don't even know from what .

I think I need help , I'm scared of the future , I don't know what to do not anymore . I don't even know myself who I am I'm sick of being sick I just want someone to be with me someone I can talk to someone who can hear me out not my psychiatrist , not my family , neither my friends , someone who don't know me just I want to tell somebody about it myself somebody who I don't know ...

I need help because I m so afraid of myself of my thoughts . So please help me