2017.

This year was probably the toughest year for me. I gained new friends, I lost some old friends. I decided not to follow my dream, in taking language, and follow my mom's decision; taking accounting instead. I was so glad when I saw her so happy during my college enrolment day. I don't have any friends by that time, I was alone and all of my other friends are taking that matriculation course or taking foundation in science. I have to start again from the scratch. 

My health wasn't that good either this year. I was admitted to the hospital a few times. Taking pills here and there. Trying so hard not to bother my new friends, going to the hospital and clinic alone as I'm far away from home. Asking the doctor if there's any other way for me not to be warded whenever i got class the next day, bcoz i know i can't afford to skip one.

My boyfriend and I broke up. And for a moment, I was lost. He's one of the people who kept me sane during my high school life. And realising that I had no longer a shoulder to lean on hurts a lot, especially when u trust someone way to much. Playing 'we dont talk anymore' (jungkook's cover) on the loop, and trying to be independent. But tbh, I'm thankful for our breakup, bcoz if I am still w him, I wouldnt have survive the first sem of college. 

My SPM result wasn't probably the best, and all the stares and murmurs that i got from my aunts and my parents' friends hurt a lot. 

Having a writerblock, an once friend who told me I shouldn't write anymore since I'm taking accounting and not going to take creative writing anymore were the reason why I didn't update. 

My depression and anxiety. Well, I'm trying not to take any antidepressants aite now since I'm taking another pills for my nerves and carpal tunnel syndrome. 

So the thing is, for 2018, I'm not going to look back, and surely I am not going to regret.