Okay, so I really  wanted  to write this to share how I found  closure with Taehyun leaving  Winner. I know everyone of us  have different  reactions and understanding on what  really  happened. And any  Incle’s heart at that time was really  broken. I am not exaggerating  but I wept, like 2-3 days which was not like me at all. Winner has I think touched all our lives in a way and made us really happy.

First, I didn’t  really  believe what the “official” reason for Taehyun leaving winner and that  was for mental health issues. Well I did  believe that he had mental health issues but  I didn’t  really  believe that it was the main reason at least. And I was one of those who lashed out  on YG which  I now regret and feel terribly sorry for. I didn’t  feel betrayed by  Taehyun nor  by  the whole group though. And I supported Taehyun and his music but couldn’t find the strength to keep on listening  to their old songs or to Winner’s new songs because I just  couldn’t bear  not  seeing  Taehyun among  his brothers.

It was not  until recently that I had come to terms with the whole thing and found healing. I guess what  cemented that was Jonghyun’s death which was really devastating. I sort of thought  about  Taehyun and what  he must’ve been going through as an “idol”. We all know how his “idol” status had always been chaotic with people accusing  him of being a snob, arrogant, liar  and an attention seeker and all the other  accusations that even now have persisted. I saw one article about him clarifying all the dating rumors and one sentence he said really hit me. He said “but no one believes me anyways..” and my heart bled. Imagine all the accusations casted on him by haters and even some Incles and try as he might to clarify them, they keep on saying hateful things against him. but he couldn’t  be angry and furious at fans or take legal actions because hey, he was just an idol and he was owned by the public because if he didn’t have fans, how would their albums be sold right?
 And then there was Exit:E which was a great album that he had major participation in and didn’t become mainstream. I guess he had been filled with a lot of pressure for the album to do well. And some kept saying  that it was a flop though it was one of the most legit albums I’ve heard from KPOP idols. 

I imagine all of the things he was going through; the things that we knew and saw and all the things that we didn’t. And I try to imagine it multiplied because of his mental disorder and I just can’t help but cry. 
To some, it might have been “selfish” of him to leave the group and we may have felt  betrayed. But if leaving the group was what it took for him to finally be able to stand against those who slandered him and say hurtful things against him; if it was what it took for him to keep his sanity and if it was what it took for him to be alive and healthy today then I’m really  glad he became “selfish” and left the group. 
And may I just say that I am EXTREMELY proud of  him and what he has achieved both with and without  Winner. And I will be supporting  both groups Southclub  and Winner now because they  are extremely  talented individuals and groups. 
I hope other  Incles and Amps will find closure and healing  too! God bless always!