We lost our musical legend Kim Jonghyun.

I wanted to say something sooner. But I wasn't ready to. I was going through finals when I heard the news. His passing combined with the fact that I didn't do as well as I hoped on my exams, didn't put me in the best mood. So I waited a while before making a posting to AFF.

I want to start off by putting the Facebook message I wrote on the day of his passing. 

Today SHINee's Kim Jonghyun passed away. A legend in the Kpop industry and in music as a whole has left us at the young age of 27. I am in utter shock and I am deeply saddened. I've been a Shawol for over 5 years now. Shinee's music speaks to me in ways I can't explain. To think that I will never hear Jonghyun's precious voice and his amazing music is heart breaking. My heart goes out to his family and friends and to the Shinee members mourning. He was truely an artist and a social activist. His musical presence won't be forgotten. I will miss him dearly. 
RIP Kim JONGHYUN 😢😭💔💎

I still can't believe it. I keep thinking when is this nightmare going to end? I keep wishing that this didn't happen. I keep wishing that I will wake up and check the reports for good news. But when I heard about the funeral and memorial, I broke down into tears. I wept and wept. I've never cried over a celebrity ever in my life. But Jjong is different. Shinee is different. I've been a shawol for as long as I've been a Kpop fan. My love for them goes deeper than their music. I admire their hard work and dedication and their overall presence in the industry. Their songs resonate with me. I've never loved a group as much as I love Shinee. I always supported Shinee and I always wanted them to be happy and healthy.

I feel like my heart has been ripped out and crushed. I can't breathe or think properly. I'm up at 1am writing this because I can't sleep. My mind is wondering too much. Jonghyun was such a sweet person. He was so sensitive and caring. He had immense talent. His songs were out of this world. He was a true artist. He was a legend. And to think that he was suffering before his passing makes this even harder. He wasn't happy. He was broken inside. It must have been so painful for him.

My heart goes out to his family, friends, and the Shinee members. They are hurting so much. His passing is affecting everyone. I hope that the Kpop community can support each other and stay strong through all of this. 

I am hurt but I will heal. I will never forget Jonghyun and his accomplishments to music and the contributions he made to Shinee. I hope Kim Jonghyun's soul is resting peacefully in a better place.

Yes Jjong, You did do well~