LEAVING,HOW MUCH I H*T* YOU TIFFANY
Jonghyun's death is really HIT me hard rite now...After i saw what happened to all the idols about sending farewell speech including taeyeon,i got some huge WORRIES about taeyeon condition rite now...
We all know taeyeon is one of idol tht had tendency to get depression(or if she had depression already),and it's not helping w jonghyun's news at all..
Rite now if all of u want to against me you better shut up ur mouth and close this blog and never read it....because what I'm about to say next is something tht i know will really hurt some or all of ur feeling and i will being soooooo unfair and sooooo judgemental person rite now cuz i really really need to express it out rite now...I can't even bearing it in my mind,and it make me SAD and stress...tht y i need to let it out..
TIFFANY HWANG MIYOUNG........I REALLY HATE YOU RITE NOW.....i never know tomorrow or day after it but RITE NOW I REALLY HATE YOU.....
If something happen to TAEYEON...i will put all of d blame towards u...it's not like i put this statement AFTER JONGHYUN'S NEWS but b4 tht thing happened i strt to saw this concern and hateful feeling to you tiffany......
Let me describe what i felt....
I don't know you guys but for me i strt to saw tae is different or had something after 3 of them leaving SmEnt including tiffany.....i can see how she still had conversation through comments or like d post from sooyoung n seohyun...even sooyoung said she will go to tae's concert and seo will be guest in tht concert BUT did all of you saw ANY int bet tae n tiff,more specific TAE TO TIFFANY????????
I bet NEVER...........TAEYEON NEVER LIKE,COMMENTS OR EVEN POSTED something related about tiffany like seo or soo or sun or yul or yoon or hyo do.....Yeah rite,tiffany still like tae's photo or send congrats to taeyeon but my concern here TAEYEON ACTION NOT TIFFANY ACTION....tiffany is so bubbly person so for sure she will do what she's done for anybody including taeyeon..
After 3 members leaving,i get chance to know HOW BIG N EXPENSIVE sunny's n hyoyeon's NEW PARADISE.... You know what,tht meant only taeyeon(i dont know bout yoona yet but i REALLY believe yoona move out b4 tht) stayed in tht house ALONE.......BY HERSELF.......IN THAT BIG DORMM..
What it supposed to meants??????taeyeon one's said in game show or reality show she had some depression issue and she really never hide tht she afraid to be ALONE,stay ALONE but in the same time want to be ALONE...you know how tht feeling???????i know tht feeling cuz i'm also introvert person...they who is known as introvert person is a someone who is like to stay in silence n less people in some place,we are really like to juz stay in our room,listening to music or surfing enternet for 24/7 if we could and only get out for eat...but sometime we are also need someone by our side juz stay still and mayb be there for us when we wanna talk or share something..it's what introvert person want in their life.....we are not tht kind of person going out for meeting somebody and make a new friends....we are the person that will put higher trust to someone tht we think we can rely on whenever we need them in good or bad condition and we also will let tht person to rely on us whenever they need us.....so this is me and also i can tell this is also taeyeon....
So now tae is alone whenever she went home tht why,she got ZERO.....she put Zero in higher place in her heart,she treat zero like her own younger brother....pampered him,coaching him,bring him to anywhere she goes even to work...she also for the 1st time open up zero's insta account....she REALLY TREAT HIM AS A PERSON...did u see how she treat GINGER(b4 tiffany leaving to LA) and how she traet zero(after tiffany leaving)????????????I don't wanna compare ginger n zero,tae really LOVE THEM ,it's no doubt...i can see it....I wanna compare how she act b4 n after tiffany leaving...Cant you see what i see???b4 tiffany leaving,all of her attention is about tiffany,she update WITH TIFFANY,she going out BECAUSE OF TIFFANY,she eat WITH TIFFANY,she playing or listening music WITH TIFFANY....And now after tiffany leaving,she update on instagram WITH ZERO,she going work WITH ZERO,she listening music WITH ZERO,she make insta live WITH ZERO.....24/7 she make sure zero is with her....BECAUSE OF WHAT????????because she believes in zero.....
She believe zero NEVER LEAVE HER,
She believe zero ALWAYS NEED HER,
She believe zero LOVE HER,
She believe zero ALWAYS WANT HER,
She believe zero MAKE HER FEEL LOVE..
She put her trust in ZERO.....she once said she never think or felt zero is a PUPPY but him is her DONGSEANG(brother) n friend.....Is it not enough for me to hate tiffany???????????
After Zero,what else we can see???or I CAN see???
I can feel HOW SUFFER SHE IS RITE NOW WITH JOUNGHYUN LEAVE.....i dont know where i got this feeling but jounghyun's death is such a pick point in tae's life after this...either she will be GREAT PERSON or .........(i don't want to say it)....I put all my BELIEVE and TRUST in taeyeon.....I believe she can DO BETTER next time,i believe she will MOVE POSITIVELY next time,i believe she can STAY STRONG BY HERSELF but sometime WE HAVE TO KNOW OUR LIMIT...As an ORDINARY PERSON / HUMAN,taeyeon also had her limit.....
After all the LEAVING things she had experienced in 2017 from members LEAVING to jounghyun's LEAVING...dont you thing it's enough for me to hate tiffany????
Try to understand what i want to express.....IF......IF......IF......once again i say IF
IF tiffany hwang miyoung didn't one of the 3 members tht LEAVING,IF tiffany didn't MOVE OUT,IF tiffany don't went back to LA,IF tiffany IS WITH HER like F****NG RITE NOW..Didn't you guys think tht MAYBE or JUZ A LITTLE SONE or TAENGENGER will feel safe for taeyeon??????
We WILL WORRY but we also felt relief BECAUSE tiffany is there to COMFORT HER,to HUG HER,to STAY WITH HER,to SHARE HER THOUGHT,to WARM HER,to BE WITH HER RITE NOW......don't you think this MIGHT be Happen if tiffany remains as a FRIEND for 14 years????????????
Mayb you think tae had family ,friends who are able to comfort her rite now even she got haechul with her,someone tht i really BELIEVE will take good care of her BUT..............
Did you ever experienced when you want to share your thoughts,your BIG secret,your inner feeling,something that you really want to share with someone but u can't because you need to tell all of that to ONLY 1 person tht you REALLY BELIEVE n TRUST....then end up you can't express it out and decided to keep it aside and juz hope it will gone someday????this is what taeyeon feel rite now....HOW I KNOW?????based on what i saw n how taeyeon's posted lately n some knowledge tht i learned from my psychological class...
So this is not enough FOR ME to hate tiffany???????
She is the person said it LOUDLY & PROUDLY that she NEVER EVER can live WITHOUT TAEYEON but now how she act and do to what she said earlier?????Went back to her hometown to achieve her goals in life and leaving taeyeon struggle by herself even she know how introvert person tae is,never visit taeyeon even for 1 day after know taeyeon's accident???this is how tiffany CARE....
Yes,not everything is SHOULD TO SHOW TO PUBLIC but didn't it will AT LEAST help other people especially SONE,TAENGGANGER & ME(judgemental person) feel relief???because we know how taeyeon's condition rite now about jonghyun's death...
Not enough for me to HATE TIFFANY HWANG MIYOUNG?????TAEYEON'S "FRIEND" FOR 14 YEARS?????
Stay STRONG TAEYEON...there will be 1 person come to you,and provide to you all you need in life and NEVER LEAVE you ALONE......FOR NOW
SONE ,TAENGGANGER FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD ARE BEHIND & BY YOUR SIDE TO GO THROUGH TOGETHER WITH YOU ALONG THIS JOURNEY..
Please STAY STRONG TAEYEON
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