The day after

I'm waking up now with so many emotions and not enough words to voice them all. I know I've been gone for years, but I may be gone for a bit longer as I figure out how to process what has happened. So in lieu of fanfiction, I'll just bring you another message in the same vein as the last.

Don't go through this alone. Don't go through any pain alone. If no one will listen, I will, even if I don't know you. If I can take away the pain, I will try my damnedest. If going to page 5 of my Stories page and reading the piece of that is "Maybe" will somehow bring a smile to your face, then do it. If never reading fics again will somehow make your heart ache a little less, then do it. You are not alone in this world. Please don't feel that you are.

What has happened has happened, and it's time to move forward. I won't be writing for a bit. I'm not sure when I'll start again. I'm not a religious person, but I will be praying. I hope you all will feel free to reach out to me if you need comfort or support during this time. 

I don't need to know someone to love them, and I love you all. 

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SugarPopFiction
#1
Thanks :)

The news shocked me not only because it was out of the blue but because not even a whole week prior I'd lost a family member. And personally, I wanted to write. I thought feeling angsty would let me pour that in to an angsty fic to cope bc there's little else ai can do besides think about this stuff.
Leah0410 #2
This all seems like a nightmare, I’ve been struggling with anxiety for a few years and it hurts so much to now that JongHyun was so loved and he didn’t notice and the worst is that I totally gets his feelings I’ve been there; I love reading fics and for me his essence lives in those fics cuz every time I read I see his face. So I still gonna read; not yet cuz I need to heal, but I’m gonna read cuz his memory will forever be with me <3 please tale all the time you need to heal but please comeback and take care of yourself thank you for all your stories <3
riko4567
#3
my heart hurts a lot but i'm happy that he's not in pain anymore :(
and reading fanfiction (yours included) does bring a smile to my face on bad days, and i think it still will, but i don't think i can read any fanfiction with jonghyun in it for a while anymore.