I've had almost an entire to day to accept everything and truly take this all in. I still feel the same. It's so hard to explain. All I can see is his beautiful smile and all I can hear is his lovely voice. I can't explain the way I feel. I really can't. I'm so sad. So angry. So confused. Why did such a beautiful angel have to be taken away from us today? I'm not religious by any means, but this situation has me praying to God. How do I recover from this? I know it may seem as if I'm over-reacting, but I truly am having so much difficulty trying to cope with this. It doesn't feel real. It still feels like he's here. I just don't get it. Have I put it into words yet? I'm just not sure. He was by far one of my favorite KPop idols ever. I can't imagine a world without this lovely soul. Why did he have to leave us. What did he do to deserve something like this? Shawols will never be the same. SHINee will never be the same. KPop will never be the same. I will never be the same. It's hard for me to write with a lack of light. He held a lot of hope. So much happiness. He made others feel so much joy and love. Why? Why? Imagine how the other members must feel. Think of how sad his family must be. This is why I cannot physically accept his tragic passing. It doesn't make sense to me. I'm still crying even after a day of knowing all of this. It hurts so much. This beautiful angel has left us and become an actual angel. I'm not sure as to what SHINee will become after this. I truly don't. This whole situation is so hard to stomach. I feel so empty without him. Again, mind me if you think I'm being dramatic, but I truly mean everything I say. The amount of pain Shawols are in right now is so upsetting. But I can't begin to imagine what his close friends and family are feeling right now. I'm just so upset. So distraught. I don't know how to handle this. Kim Jonghyun will never truly die. Stay strong. We have to make sure his legacy lives on forever. All I can ask is that everyone should be supportive of one another. If someone you know is upset, please talk to them. Listen. Make sure they're truly okay. This incident hasn't gone un-noticed and it will never be forgotten. 

April 8, 1990 - December 18, 2017

Kim Jonghyun will forever be our beautiful angel.

May your soul forever Rest in Peace.

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