The beautiful man we lost today helped me with sleepless nights.

i'd have Y Si Fuera Ella on at night when i couldn't sleep because my mild form of depreesion stopped me, his voice lulled me to sleep, i was happy to wake up hearing the song too.

then anxeity set in and took over, my depression long gone, but the effects still linger.

i listened to that song on my own at nights when i couldnt calm down, you've voice would light up my night, hearing the word; 'the melody that made me happy'.

now i will never have the chance to thank you in person, but as you watch down upon us all, i know you know my feelings.

so thank you, Kim Jonghyun, for saving me, for relaxing me and for being my light when my world was darkest.

i'm sorry we couldn't be there for you.

'please don't abandon me,' i wont.

'i don't want to live', you do.

'what should i do, what should i do without you?' its too lte for me to answer.

i love you Kim Jonghyun, i'll never forget hoe your voice, your lyrics, how you saved me.