this is a really simple gift, but. coding layouts is the only thing i can actually do and i'm good with finding obscure music, so here's a list of songs in the order of our...story, i guess. from before we got together to month four. and this is REALLY cringeworthy so get ready to hate me haha xD love u~~~

 

i blink and open my eyes again, but you're still different. even though my feelings for you weren't instant and for a bit i only saw you as a friend, i definitely had some kind of interest in you. which was kinda obvious since if i hadn't then i wouldn't have told you everything so comfortably and i wouldn't have pestered you close to every day about rabbiting with me. and to be completely honest you're not? really the type i usually go for? close to all my exes were the cuter type but you were really calm and collected. sharp with your words, sarcastic, or as you would say, A Bad . but you stood out, and i'm glad i put in the effort to get to know you better. 

 

you're my focus, can nothing get in between us. so remember you had a bunch of drama with you and mr squash during the first two months or so that we knew each other? yeah this song describes it, sort of. as you know i've already had a bit of old beef with bummer before so it was kinda weird to like someone in the same squad, but i decided that it shouldn't matter and was like xD it xD imma do it xD yolo swag swag xD even though i didn't want the fl equivalent to white baby mama drama.. you were worth it though, ily.

 

i want to wake up every morning and say have a good morning. REMEMBER HOW WE WERE AN UNOFFICIAL THING FOR LIKE 20881347 YEARS BEFORE I OFFICIALLY ASKED YOU OUT. with the fake shindong account thing. so this song (this is actually a cover of crush's song that i like better cus u know...feminism) describes it perfectly. it's too cringe to explain it in detail, but at this time i was so ~**~*in love~*~* and it was a nice honeymoon phase where i was just! heart eyes! at everything and anything you do! i mean i still am but this song better fits the timeline of before a relationship blooms so henlo o w o

 

in my head it's all you. THERES NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT THIS ONE EXCEPT I LOVE U.... it's just a song that says wow... haha... i keep thinking of only u.... the is up with that.... and that is! basically me. even though i disappeared for two weeks because of my thing, and i'm always on and off since i have a weird time schedule, sometimes i'm just like...damn... i miss my WENDY.... wonder what she doin... and whenever you're upset or sad or in trouble i always think about whether you're okay now so listen to this because i'm cringing from explaining this MESS

 

i'm scared just as much as my heart flutters. right now bts is my ult trigger because of the whole thing with cupcakke, but this song is basically me right now xD. because even though we match really well and never fight since! holy maybe we meant 2 be! usually 4-5 months is when i get DROPPED or get ghosted so bein the crybaby i am im kinda scared of the future since im sorta a mess and i dont want you to get tired of me Dx but you know at the same time ilysm and you're my fav so at times it feels like....WOW im so excited to see how long we'll last in the future!!!! im sorry im a poor excuse of an english major i cant even explain this properly bye i love u so much