My tears fall....

I'm hurting for the uptenth times...i can't take it anymore...

The tears won't stop and i can't describe to the them how much the pain wounded me...

I love them very dearly....they are the love of my life....love them in every damn day that i been through after knowing them...

The feeling is bitter and i feel it getting more and more severe in every minutes...

I was blaming myself....

'maybe i don't love them enough'

'maybe i don't support them enough'

'maybe i don't understand them enough'

The question is repeating like a broken record....

The tears fall again....

And after a while i want to less the pain that i feel...

I said to myself...

'who are you to them?'

'are you even exist in their mind'

'do they think about you before going to sleep'

'do they love you'

The answer is painful to be utter in a words...

My tears fall and i just smile while tearing

It hurts me again...

'you yourself was the person that should be blame'

I was yelling to myself....you know it...

From the very first moment you know that in your hearts

YOU ARE JUST A F***ING FAN...NOT MORE 

my tears fall without a control and i whispering to myself

'do i have to let you go now?'

Someone please stop my stupid hearts and slap me if you would so that i can stop my tears...

I was crying so hard....

And it's hurt so much...

Help me...