I am going crazy.

So, one of my favorite tags here revolve around studentxteacher relationships. I love the thrill of the OC not getting caught; the teacher imageries of the idols are forming in my head nicely; and the cliche storylines still get my heart fluttering everytime.

Admittedly, sometimes I imagine myself in the shoes of the student OC, how it's like to have a teacher boyfriend and how would it be like when the two are outside the school boundaries.

But then, now, something weird is happening to me, I'm not even kidding. My philosophy teacher gives me obvious signs of courtship & it is so obvious that even my blockmates notice it!! I am freaking the out of my soul because even though I wanted to get the hell away from him, I couldnt because I am the president of our class & a part of the school's student council, so I always see him in the corridors, faculty rooms, student council office, etc.

It all started when... okay, me I dont know how it started. I just took notice of it when he kept calling me to stay after class & he gave me a nickname (which, he never does to his normal students.) that even my blockmates tease me for it cause he's the only person EVER to call me that!!!!

Next, he keeps on prolonging the text conversation whenever I update him on important school stuff, to the point where he diverts the subjects for us to talk about personal matters. He asked me to "go out and have coffee" with him TWICE!! Just this morning, it's national teacher's day and he gave me the chocolates his other students gave him!!! Worse is there were fOUR other students that was with me when he gave the chocolates. They asked whats up with our professor & why didnt he give them chocolates too?

​​​Seriously, when I said I imagined some teacherxstudent scenarios in my head, I NEVER MEANT IT AND WANTED IT TO HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE. Real life situations like that happening to me just freaks me out. I dont think it's appropriate & he's old enough to be my ing dad.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA What should I doooooo? 😭

LIFE UPDATE (10/7) : He gave me food this lunchtime. I am freaked out more than I was when I typed this because he gave me food in front of the whole class & said "I remembered you that's why I bought this". AAAAAAAAAAAAA I am super creeped out beyond words 😭

(wrote this on my phone so I have no idea on how it'd look like once posted.)