Hey. This blog overhere in aff gona be one of my official diary which I can hint whatever happen in my life without anyone knows the plot of real story. Its like guess the road of the path or whatever it is.

So hi. I am so not gonna tell my name or my age because why would I. it is safe to say that I am at the working age where I supposely working to earn money however lets just say for this couple of few month I had to work for free (I have no intention to make it sound so bad) because I would used the experience for real in another coming 12 months, If you know what I mean. HOWEVER THE WHOLE FIRST & SECOND PARAGRAPH WAS NOT THE STOREY I WISH TO TELL, ITS ON THE THIRD. SO SKIP THEM.

Here is the story. To fall in love or say that I fall in love in a bit of 5 week knowing each other was a bit to absurd, isnt it? yeah whatever. He is kind of cute(?) no I dont think he is. I dont even think this is love (should I sing What is love? No? okay). He is reponsive and caring. That is typically why a girl fall. DHIT. okay.

LET ME TELL AN EXAMPLE OF A TRUE SITUATION. (what the hell am I even describing). so I work for a laboratory service company. Dont ask the name. so each and every morning start with us greeting mornings to each other. THATS NICE. HA. most of the guy didnt do this because they think they are too handsome for this. , MIRROR PLEASE. so yeah. another sparkling point to add on his mark.

okay. moving on.. most of my morning routine start from checking whether my sample from yesterday had a positive result. In which sometimes I screw. so I would go to his lab (which is conveniently next to mine, I AM LUCKY. SHUT IT). Most of the time I would walk and smile weirdly and he gets the hint. which he took posivitely because he ask "did you got yourself in trouble again?" (THIS IS THE SOLE REASON AS TO WHY I FAALLL OR CRUSH ON HIM. WHATEVER YOU CALL. I CANT REALY DISTINGUISH THE TWO YET). and he would laugh saying I am an idiot because this cycle repeat almost everyday.

sometimes, I would forgot to tap on the start button and go around telling him my sample weirdly doesnt change. Then he was like "you sure you had tap the start button?" "you are so forgetful"

Sometimes it was hard to open the lid of a machine and he would do it for. for anyone actually.

Then, there are this one time he was on two days leave because apparently he went to somewhere for holiday.

He is back on the day the was suppose to, ofcourse. why am I even telling. He told one of his friend which that he normally didnt buy souvenier for his friend.

yet that evening, he ask me to choose the flavor of my favourite before asking my other friend which she would want. I mean, he did not send me a signal? No? I am all alone in this right?

However I didnt get to choose since my other friend decide to shout her chosen flavor. Since I love her as my I just nod that she should have them, I would take whatever left. the thing he bought was only two, so we get one each. Since the two of us are closest to him.

HEY. GET BACK HERE. THIS STORY HAVENT END YET! YOU CAN READ CHANBAEK LATER!

so I had this idea of confessing eventhough throughout my life I havent done it. not even once. so was thinking over a night or two and I decided not to do it because I am a coward. do I need to spell them. yeah. apparently I gave up on him without even trying because what if I am all alone in this from the start? I would break my own heart with MY OWN TWO HANDS. DHIT. DRAMATIC.

so apparently I wrote somewhere in my social media that it is hard to move on from a person and one of my close just had to ask whether on not I am in love? so I flatly said no. because if I had say yes there would be too much bubbly feeling on my stomach.

aside from that, I cant actually say yes because he meet my standard at a point but at another point he dont. and I dont want to be laugh at. WE ALL HAD THIS INSECURITY. SHUT IT. I AM BEING TRUTH. SHUT IT.

so let me tell you which point he hit bull eyes. (am gonna sing sehun line "THATS RITE MY TYPE! WOOOHOOO". DHIT) 

OKAY. NUMBER ONE. HE IS TALL. HE IS + CM TALLER THAN ME. I APPRECIATE YOUR TALLNESS. which also explain my love for CHANYEOL. HA.

NUMBER TWO. HE IS LANKY. HAHA.

NUMBER THREE. HE IS FUN. YEAH WHATEVER. HE CAN BE SNARKY AT TIMES.

NUMBER FOUR. HE DONT MIND DODDLE HIS FACE WITH MAKE UP WITH ALL HIS CARE. I DONT REALLY KNOW IF HE WEAR MAKE UP BECAUSE HE LOOKS NORMAL. (HE FITS MY DREAM OF DODDLING MY MAN FACE. MUAHAHA.)

NUMBER FIVE. LET ME THINK. HMMM. HE IS QUITE CHATTY AND TALKATIVE. WHICH REMIND ME IF I GOT THIS GUY. HE CAN HANDLE ALL THOSE BUSYBODY RELATIVES WHILE I CAN SIT AND WATCH.

NUMBER SIX. NO. THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG. BUT I THINK HIS CHEST IS FINE ENOUGH FOR MY HEAD TO REST ON. OKAY. THIS IS GETTING TOO INTIMATE. BYE. SHOULD I TICK THE (M) WARNING?

so that is it. do you think i need an advice, if you do well you can just comment down. if you dont. SHUT IT. HA. if you think this is quite clice, you need to know Idk. ha. if you are experiencing the same, then welcome to the CLUB, its JD here. lol. if you had a boyfriend and you think its pathetic, well once you broke up i wish you would be in more sad place. ha. I usually cant wrote down up to 1000++ due to the fact that I would lose most of my ty plot along the time. but I could finish this story, hmm. THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU DHIT.

okay. bye people I wishue you have a nice nice day with exo power and xiumin bare upper body on his variety show. muahahaha.

goodluck on those who are small enough to still take huge exam. like entrance exam and all those final exam dhit. bye.

bye bye all earthling. not like I like alien SHJT. bye