Its always like this, you keep on asking me if I got a work and when I say I do not, you will push me to work even its not what I want. I know my responsibilities but you don’t have to give me unwanted pressure just because I haven’t do anything yet. I want to help, I really do, but I also do not want to regret if I just decide because of a sudden push. You gave me pressure instead of encouragement. Support is what I need but it seems impossible to give. Can you just gave me time? I’ve been following everything you told me for the time I exist. I also do think of the future, that’s why I was trying to be careful of making decisions that will make a great impact. 

Do you even know that I’ve been suffering for a long time? I’ve always show my tough sides so that you will able to get strength from me? Did I do it overly? That you don’t able to see how weak I am? How I’ve been trying to be the superwoman and tryna save the day, to save the things that are nearly broken? Try to fight the tears to escape even tho I just want to shout and cry out loud. But I keep it, I’ve been enduring these. Enduring everything. So I can see you guys happy. 

I just hope that you gave me full support and not unwanted pressure…