-Long Forgotten Before I really knew what's the feeling of warmth but the years passed the meaning itself I only knew.The feeling of someone cared for you or just the feeling of someone wanted you as much as you want them. Those feeling was long forgotten now. I remembered, the last time I felt that when I was still happily and animatedly talking to my friends.Or when my family was still complete. And even the time I called someone as my friend. For the past couple of years life has been so hard on me.It never been kind to me.Ever since my mother died.The lifeless path of me started. There were no directions at all just plain ' I have to live' chant, even though I'm close to giving up. Because life has not treated me so nice.I became difficult too, difficult in everything. I became more preserved than ever, silence became my serenity. I think it's one of the reason I pushed people away from me...not intended. But one day I became tired at that kind of lifestyle. So , I tried to change it and started to warm up again to people around me. But heck! Who am I kidding here?It never back to how things was before. Definitely things have change and it looks going to be permanently. So in the end I just endured the hard life or maybe I was used to it.Maybe I became bitter, but can you blame me? I'm just fragile human being here. But because of that hard and rough life I had it taught me very well.I learned so many things that until now I'm trying to put in my life.Of course be my guide on the next challenge I will face. Now? I think I'm started to heal because of those hard years. I'm trying to feel happy again and let alone happiness swell in my heart. I know I'm still far from 'Okay, everything's now is alright' mode.But at least I can see myself progressing just alright. I know I'm still seeking to those forgotten feelings that I never encountered or felt for the past years,but I'm positive maybe not today but absolutely SOMEDAY I'll find that again. Those long forgotten feelings.