I'm Shook, I'm Sad, I Gave Up (rant on P101 and my life as a failure) (PROFANITIES AHEAD)
For Muslims who are reading this during Ramadhan, do so at your own discretion because
There aren't a lot of cussing but you can still feel my rage in here
PART ONE
I don't watch P101 because I hate survival shows, in case nobody knows about this
Yeah it's because I hate survival shows. I didn't even finish MYDOL and I only watched the parts after the VIXX members were chosen. Goddamn Daewon's story was sad
I didn't watch No Mercy either because people keep telling me about the sad things Changkyun had gone through and stuff and no I don't want to share more pain
BUT PRODUCE 101 THOUGH.
My mom had been watching this season since the very first episode (not sure why she got interested though, she didn't bat an eye when I mentioned about the girl version which I also didn't watch lol) and she adored a lot of them
And when I mean a lot of them I meant the really popular ones like Daniel and Samuel and the NU'EST members lmao
But last night was like a fokkin tragedy to a lot of my friends
And me too, somehow
Because although I didn't watch the show I knew that 4/5 of the members of NU'EST were on the show (WHERE'S ARON THO) and I was ROOTING FOR THEM
AND ONLY ONE GOT IN
WHAT THE TAUFUPOK
WHERE IS MY DONGHO
WHERE IS MY JONGHYUN
AND WHY WASN'T SAMUEL IN THE LIST WOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOT
Okay enough of the P101 rage because there are like 10 more blog posts on my feed dedicated to the tears of the fans of those three sad bois
But let's get into PART TWO
I JUST FOUND OUT THAT ALMOST THE ENTIRE CLASS KNOWS THAT I HAVE A CRUSH ON ONE OF THEM (aka the one who helped me crack FL Studio lmao)
IN FACT I THINK EVERYONE IN THE CLASS DOES EXCEPT FOR HIM WOTTOFOK
It started off with me being friendzoned, and then my deskmates found out, and then it somehow spread to the entire class (I ing hate this class so many in here kill me pls)
And JUST today, my close friend who is also a mutual 'close' friend of my crush (the inverted commas because she claims otherwise) told me that a classmate told him about 'someone in class having a crush on him' and
well
I DON'T WANT THINGS TO GET AWKWARD
My classmates have been really obnoxious about the two of us recently especially because our class teacher wants a new seating plan and look at the amount of effort they put in to make the two of us new deskmates
Like wow friends
Thank you so much
I get to sit with him
You can feel the joy
You can feel my joy
In the end I didn't because I was really pissed about them (the more people mention about something the more agitated you get that's why I'm still salty about 'and also VIXX')
And also for the convenience and the welfare of one of her beloved and obedient student my teacher made another plan with a new arrangemetn of furniture so I'm now sitting with girls instead of him
Well I wasn't sitting with him in the first place I sat with another guy whom I was semi-close with but yeah
you can feel
the joy
so joyous
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