Before I rant regarding TOP's condition, let me show you this one. A teacher wrote this on the board. 

1x9=8

2x9=18

3x9=27

4x9=36

5x9=45

6x9=54

7x9=63

8x9=72

9x9=81

10x9=90

Everyone's laughing at her for making a mistake. Then the teacher said, "people tend to focus on your single mistake even if the rest you did was right. Same thing here, I intentionally put a wrong answer on the first one but the rest are written correctly. Yet, you did not appreciate the correct answers and just focus in the single mistake I made."

Relate?

I hate when I see VIPs that turned their back on bigbang, most especially to TOP when he needs us the most. Most importantly, if BIGBANG is the one that brought you to kpop world. 

I am a VIP and I condemn the act of him smoking but did I love him less? No. Did I curse him? No. Because he is just a person and every person makes mistake in their life. If making mistakes cost a life, then everyone is dead by now. 🙄

To every VIP who left (actually you should not be called VIP in the first place), then leave silently. We don't need you here. You're just here when they're doing good. When bigbang is making noise and topping charts. And this time, when they are facing controversies, you'll just take a step back and forget everything that the boys had given us? Did you forget how hard they worked just to make their fans happy? Did you forget how they loved us more than we deserve?

If you cannot stand a single mistake that TOP did in his entire career, then don't bother coming back to this fandom. If you cannot appreciate all of TOP's effort to contribute to Bigbang's success, then the door is open. 

To be honest, Kpop was somehow popular in my country before yet I don't really give much attention to them. But when I saw TOP on my friend's laptop in running man, I instantly fell in love with him and finally entered fangirl world. In short, TOP is the person who made me love people whp doesn't even know I exist. During the time I was so down and having mental breakdown, Bigbang was my sanctuary. I stopped writing fanfics because I'm stressed out with everything that's happening in my life and their music were the only filling my head to remove any suicidal thoughts that I have. Until now, Bigbang is still part of my everyday life right before I wake up and before my mind rest at night. So I fckng know how hard it is just to get by everyday with anxiety and depression while everyone thinks I'm freakin' okay because I always tell them "I'm fine". 

And this:

I am fcking annoyed when I visited TOP's instagram and saw bunch of imbecile people saying "kill yourself" "attention seeker" "you're not even reflecting" "you deserve to die" and the like. Wtf was that?

I even saw news about his condition and there are people reacting the "laugh emoji!"

You know the saddest part? Most hate comments were in Hangul. International fans are more open minded and sending their love and concerns to him but the knetz(not generalizing but most of them) were wishing TOP to die. Are you even human? You're wishing a person to die! Don't you see how high suicidal rate is in your country? If you hate him, then leave. But please don't write anything stupid that will push a person to do things that might actually kill him. 

Not just to TOP, but to everyone. Please? Can the world love each other instead of hating? You don't know what's happening in someone's mind, so please don't speak like that person doesn't have feelings and is not going though a hard time. You don't know everyone's battle. Don't push someone to the edge. Show some humanity. 

And, please... Please pray for Seunghyun.