Here's a list of reasons why I hate myself:

• I'm too absorbed in my studies
• I care too much about what others think of me
• I take too long to change, when really I'm just too tired to do anything.
• I cause problems for my family, my friends, my boyfriend... just everyone in general. 
• I'm mentally, physically, and emotionally drained.
• I keep everything bottled up because I'm afraid people will hate me for telling them how I feel.
• I'm a coward.
• I don't deserve to have my parents even look at me.

Is this really what my parents wanted to create? A child so insecure, she has no other option but to vent her frustrations on the internet? I don't want pity. I don't want reassurance. I just want to cry. Or end it all.

My exams start in 6 days. I'm sick with nerves about drama, as my group preform first. We got most of our scenes done apart from the last one. I'm been blamed for the failure of the group by the teacher and my group. 

Sure, nice comments change my outlook of life, but it's days like today, where I want to draw the line. 

I won't give in.