Hello dear readers. I've decided to pour out my depression and stress I currently have in this one blog.

Warning for the grammar errors because I'm not into the mood to check them over again. And I really hope any of you can give me some advices or help me to overcome this problem. It might sound petty to you but I've had enough.

A lot of you,no,all of you I would say aren't any of my friends in the actual life so i've had the courage to write a blog about my friendship problem with my friends. Maybe I shouldn't say this but I am the kind of girl who liked to hide my feelings from anyone including my family. 

So the story started yesterday's night,where I've grouped up with some of my friends in a social app for almost one year. I am a timid and scaredy-cat girl so I have only several friends I made in my high school which would sound pathetic to some of you.

The actual reason I signed up into this website was because I am a bookworm and I secretly likes to read stories uploaded in this web but later I met with my online friend named;Charlotte and some more who encouraged me to write some stories which I finally had the gut to write some stories. 

Well,back to the topic,on yesterday's night,I had an usual chat with my real-life friends and out of the blue,all of them left the group,leaving the only me. I was so shocked and speechless. "What did I do wrong?" We were just having fun,sending to each other memes and funny faces of ourselves and there they go; A while later,they invited me into a new group and of course,I felt a little bit upset but I kept that feelings and tried to keep quiet for a while to calm myself down and my phone were running out of battery so I've to recharge it again.

In midnight,I checked my phone and they suddenly accused me of being pissed off and angry at them just because I didn't check the chats in the group. And all of them were mocking me in the group when they ing realized I was still in there and able to read their mocks. They said that it was just a joke so I don't have to be that sensitive and they even said that it is hard to befriend with a person like me,who's always having mood swings. 

I was so so sad when I realized that was how their opinion towards me and I was about to explain my situation to them this afternoon but one of them suddenly asked to postpone our discussion to tonight without a clear reason.

I'm so sorry if this sound poor and pathetic for all of you but i've to say it because I know I would be the one who ended up being hurt inside and out. And I think that I would be alone without friends for the rest of my high school years and that is nobody would understand me.

Please,,,help me!