I'm starting to hate KPOP.

Yup, there, I said it. I've been a KPOP fan for a number of years now, I'd say five years. Yup, I use to be those hardcore, intense fans (isn't that why I'm a fanfic writer?), but now as I grew up, I look at fans and honestly, I think it's kind of pathetic.

If you're the type to be easily offended, quit reading.

I think I noticed it when I was at the BTS concert. For one, I wasn't even super excited for it. I respect them, but the things I did and sacrificed to get to that concert (I got into a car accident on the way there, I spent 70% of my paycheck for this), made me regretful that I decided to go in the first place.

 I felt extremely out of place, I just didn't fit the 'vibe'. Girls screaming and nearly passing out for music videos they've seen hundreds of times, for once, I understood what the security guard thought of us.

They thought we were crazy.

Even I thought we were crazy. I stayed quiet for the most part, only shouting when I was really pumped up, but even more, I sat down for most of the show. I was embarrassed.

That's when I realized that I was past my KPOP stage.

Even now, I scratch at my head, staring at my albums, wondering what to do with them. Before, they were a treasure, a rarity, a proud symbol of my love. Now they were just annoying me because I didn't have space for my newer books on the shelf.

So why? 

For me, the number one reason were the fans.

In KPOP, there's just this undying rage of pride spread across the fandoms and it's completely unnecessary. They want their idols to be number one, and anyone else is inferior and irrelevant.

I think my friends showed me this the most. I had been, slowly over the course of years, been fading away from KPOP, listening to American music. I still listened every once in a while, but I occasionally, I'd get annoyed that I didn't understand what they were saying, or that I wanted to sing along but couldn't.

I remember one specific moment with my friend, when I told her I hadn't listened to Twice or any new KPOP songs lately.

She

went

crazy.

"WHAT?! HOW COULD YOU?? OMG U HAVE TO LISTEN TO THEM RIGHT NOW" She says, fishing out her phone to bring up YouTube. "I CANT BELIEVE IT DUDE ITS SOOO GOOD LOOKAT HER SHES SOO CUTE I LOVE THIS SO MUCH."

One thing I absolutely hate is being forced to do something. I hate being forced to watch videos, forced to listen to music to please someone else.

"Maybe another time." I reply, trying to be nice.

She looks like I just offended her great ancestors. 

"Ok, I'll send you the link then." Of course, I never checked it.

That's one thing I realized was different in American music culture.

"Hey have you listened to Passionfruit by Drake?"

"Nah not yet."

"Oh it's good. You should listen to it sometime."

Done. That's it. There's no force, just a recommendation. There's no screaming or inappropriate comments about physical attributes with an idol. 

And I absolutely hate it when KPOP fans smear their awards across your face like you're suppose to give a damn. "OMg did u kno they won like 2 internet awards against kanye west? lmao kpop is soo popular!!"

It is because it's becoming infamous. And fans are the number one reason why. The more a group becomes famous, the more I rear away from them because of the huge attachment of delusional fans that come with it.

It's blind devotion without any bit of basic rationality.

Fans are beyond defensive and triggered easily. They're close-minded as hell and completely immature.

They get completely offended if you don't like a certain group's music and force themselves onto you. At this point, it isn't even about music anymore. 

Think about it like this. If someone doesn't like baseball, that's okay, because there are other sports they can try out.

The wrong thing to do is force them into it, shoving your pride and dedication in front of their face, all the while telling their own sport is inferior.

No one sport is better than the other because they're completely different in gameplay and rules. It's like comparing a car to a table. There's no correlation.

Basketball, Soccer, Tennis -- they're all different music genres.

 Now hate me if you want. I'm an , I know. Just needed to rant because I'm tired of people shoving KPOP in my face. I was once a fan like that too, so I wasn't fully innocent. I understand not every fan is like this either. Still, I'm annoyed.