how does it feels to be loved? to receive so much attention? to be free to choose your path? to be able to reach your dreams? yeah, i have no s to give to those bastards, but, i do listen, i do feel hurt. i sometimes think whats the purpose i appear in someone's life? because the only thing they do to me is using me, i gave them so much love, i gave them my heart to keep, i trusted them so much that if they r hurting, im the one who is crying instead.

im useless, im unnecassary in everyone's life, i hate me, i hate it that i care about people who doesn't even care about my feelings. i can't even cry anymore, because i know no one would care. people thought this is just a small matter, it doesn't hurt that much they said. why did i choose to love everyone?

keep going hating me, because theres no way you can hate me more than i hate myself.

------N