I feel like I'm lost
I really need help. I don't have anybody to talk that's why I'm writing it in here. If you want to read go ahead;
I don't want to live anymore. It's just hurt so much. When I go to sleep I wish I can't open my eyes next morning but when I woke up in the morning I curse to myself for not dying. There was things I enjoyed but not anymore. I don't feel anything now. I don't smile like I used to. I hate everything especially myself. I'm thinking everyday;"Why am I still alive? Why someone like me still breathing? I'm ugly, untalented, lonely...why did even god make me?"
And you know everybody has dreams so do I. But at some point it's seems not possible. My dreams was the only thing make me love the living but now they're fading. I feel like I'm loosing them but if they're gone I'll be like everyone else. I don't want it. Look at the street. There's a lot of people telling that they're living while all they did was just breathing.
I don't know what to do...I feel like I'm in a maze without an exit. I want to get out of it but I can't. I can't breath, it's so painful...I just want to die and probably I gonna kill myself before I turn 20. Please I need help...please I beg you!
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