okay everyone. if you have read my past blogs, then you should remember one i posted about my current focus, Chaewoon, and about a girl that really bugs me because i feel like she's trying to take Chaewoon away, even though he's not even mine.

well, i'll call her Sophia again. but this time, she pissed me off even more.

okay, so Chaewoon is dense. i mean, really dense. he doesn't notice that i stare at him because i like him, he just doesn't notice anything at all. and i liked that, because that made things easier for me to try and approach him without him getting a creepy impression about me. i mean, it's not like he doesn't stare, i catch him at times too. but i liked that he didn't know how i felt, because then it would makes things harder for me to talk to him.

well, since Sophia knows that i like him, and she claims to like him too, she told Chaewoon that i liked him. and now he knows. but why tell him in the first place? it's not her concern, it's mine. who does she think she is to tell someone about MY feelings? they're mine, and ONLY mine to discuss with him. it's my job to communicate them to him. but she told him, and claimed that she thought he already knew about my feelings.

but she knew he didn't know. she knows how dense he is, and how it would've taken him eternity for him to realize that i like him.

now i feel like that reward i was going to get when i confessed to him is gone. i can't see his surprised face, or if he is happy, i can't see that either. because he already knows, and it won't come as a surprise anymore.

that really upsets me. it doesn't bother me that it was her that told him, it bothers me that i can't see his reaction anymore. well, actually, i lie. it does bother me that it was her who told him. i feel like she's trying to break me down, and she's hiding in her facade of being a sweet person.

did she really have to tell him? no. there was no reason to. we're not friends. so why take it upon yourself to tell him about my secret? i really want to punch her, because to me, that was a huge move. i have never done anything to her, and yet she is trying to get to me.

do you know how pissed she gets when a girl talks to Chaewoon? very. and it makes me mad that she acts like he's already her property.

i'm just really upset right now.

i'll just go and write up some updates.