Hello everyone, I am deeply sorry but I had to delete my stories. I am not happy. I cannot think of possible scenarios and anything else. Med school has ruined my life, I can't even sleep for more than 4 hours. Med school made me depressed so much that I wanted to end my life because of so much pressure and I probably am not making my parents happy because of my grades. Only 1 more year then I'll get to have that damn diploma in my hand but 1 year is too long. After my pre-med I wanted to proceed immediately to medicine but, only if I had money, If only my parents were rich. If only I was smart enough for them to have their money waste of me, but I am not. I am the black sheep of the family, I am not smart, I keep disappointing them, I hate to see the sadness in my mom and dads eyes, I hated everyting of what I am. Why can't I be someone else instead? Someone who is smart, beautiful and even talented because in those words I had mentioned I am not even close to what they call average. I am completely below in everthing. Oh how I hate my life. Sometimes I do question myself why haven't I given up my life if I hated it this much? The answer? I don't know. I really don't know. The only thing I know is that I wanted to have that diploma, work my off, be rich and spoil my parents so much that I don't want to marry because I have always dreamed of traveling anywhere together with them.