It's been a while since I've been to aff. In fact the last time I was here was January 6 of last year.  Last time I've updated was longer than that. I haven't updated not because I haven't written anything or lack of inspiration but rather my attention was diverted elsewhere.  I'll be honest here, the reason I started writing was because of Bigbang Taeyang.  At that time he was what we all call my 'bias'. I have moved on from him- that'll be a different story, he was the one that inspired me to write.  However,as we grow older we change and that includes the things we enjoy, our hobby, our style, our desires and even the type of guys we get drawn too. That exactly what happen to me. I lost interest.  It's a sad truth, but the spark I once held for them as a group is no longer as bright as it once was. I cannot discredit the fandom because at one point it became an integral part of my 20's and gave me great memories introduced me to great friends. 

You're probably wondering why on earth I'm writing this if I'm no longer into the fandom. Well there's a couple of things really.  One because I have started a story and I would like to finish it because I feel like I awe it to the subscribers. I don't awe them anything really ,it's my way of saying thank you for appreciating my work and for taking their time to actually reading it. Two, because I enjoy writing.  The fandom inspired me and AFF gave me the platform to express that. Growing up, I actually hated writing for my essays and such but when you have inspiration behind that you'd experience the fun and joy of writing. This whole thing is a challenge for me, with work and traveling but I'll try my best to pull through. 

Here's my final thought. We're not Shakespeare or Austen but we are all here because we all share the love for writing and that we are all in the umbrella of fandom, K-pop fandom. So write. Write for the right reason, that you just simply love writing and want to share that to everyone else. Remember, to NOT compare yourself to anyone else. You are only insulting yourself. 

Thanks for spending time in reading my rants.