hello! this is ailisa and some of you may intimately know me as alice or wisely know me as THE meme queen, whatever it may be, i'm back!? 

after a month. 

a month empty of writing, away from my readers and friends, losing sleep and a lacking appetite. an update on my mum, she's fine now and thank you so much to everyone for your well wishes. she had 2 surgeries and she was brought back home to rest and recover, now she's back on her feet and everything is back to normal. i was quite shaken up by the whole thing. by the fact that my mum had a tumour in her stomach and that was the reality i faced as i stayed by her side at the hospital. she would ask me, "you're not the one who's sick. why are you so sad?" it was this horrible mixture of anxiety and dread. i was so afraid of losing her and now that's she back home, i'm clinging to her all the time which honestly i've always done lmao. i'm always the one telling her, "i love you, drink water, take care of yourself," on the phone lol. i was afraid of losing you guys too. my readers, my friends but many of you sent me encouraging messages, giving me energy with your uplifting words. i'm sorry for not being by your side but thank you for waiting for me. seriously, thank you so much. 

i'm catching up with school, sleeping and eating properly so i can look POPPING because prom is coming up soon and i'm going with a guy i fancy. oooooh la la. i know. but kaisoo and exo are the no. 1 dancing kings in my heart. i wanna write prom kaisoo haha but i hope to catch up with all of you a.s.a.p. i've already begun writing something up, hopefully it will be up here in the next 24 hours and i will be back, establishing my dominance as a kaisoo meme queen. 

anyway, remember your first priority should be you. how can you take care of others if you can't take care of yourself? love yourself, peeps and listen to chanyeol and soo's cover of "love yourself" if you want to be blessed. i've been an angel for the past month for my mama, haven't written any and i'm thirsty tbh but i'm about to get down and dirty with some kink bingo. lol. 

i'm happy to be back! :)