So I feel so horrible because before my Chistmas break I kept promising that I woudl update, and the thing is I was planning on it. I have part of the next chapter typed up. But during my break it was basically nonstop movement and doing things.I had work basically everyday because we became so busy and of course before my break I also had exams to study for and exams to take. 

On top of this I had about three different surguries one was for my mouth and two were for my stomach. While I had all these procedures done to fix my stomach problem, I am still struggling greatly with constant stomach issues. My doctors gave me different diets to try, and now realized I have an allergy that is mroe like a disease. Which means my digestive track is damaged and I have stomach lining damage as well. It's kind of a disaster and its taking forever to heal so I can eat without feeling discomfort or feeling sick. 

We're taking the steps for me to get better and for my digestive system to get back on track but it'll take a while. During all of this (I have no clue if I mentioned this) my sisters wedding is nearing rapidly and I am the maid of honor. Which means I've been helping her with wedding preparations and I of course have fittings and more that need to be taken care of-on top of this I will not be getting any legitmate breaks from college till this Decemember. I have to take summer courses this year so I can graduate fromt his program and move on to a bigger campus and pursue my actual major.

this new college I'll be transferring to is very expensive and I can get automatic scholarships if I get a certain GPA. I want my scholarshipt o be as big as possible so I've been basiclaly ing myself into my work really hard. Then of course I balance volunteering & work on top of this & y sister's upcoming wedding. A lot has been going on and I feel so horrible for saying I would update and then not updating. 

I feel like crying because I feel so horrid for not updating in so long. But my health seems to always mess with me, then school and work love messing with me as well and I become overwhelmed and I can't focus on the things I love doing-which is writing and reading. I've been so stressed recently-but I never want to give up on this story because I have everything planned out and more. But I'm having toruble finding time to write chapters, and everytime I write them I feel as though they are so lackluster in comparison to what i used to produce for you guys.

I'm losing confidence in my writing, and also lacking time to improve upon it. I feel so horrible and like the worst writer in the world right now. I greatly appreciate all the support from you guys-you have no idea how much it means to me. I am so grateful for your kind words of support, for your patience, for all of you. I understand as usual if my lakc of updates will cause people to leave or take away their upvotes, I am okay with this because right now I don't feel deserving of much. 

I just thought you guys deserved an explanation and a thank you as well. I wish I could find time to update, I wish I could find time to improve upon my writing ability, I wish for so many things. I just hope that I can find time to work on this story and finish it. I'm sorry once again for being so crappy at this, I wish my life wasn't suddenly bombarding me with a crap ton of responsibilites-but it is. I'm so sorry guys.

I do plan on finishing this book, I honestly do. 

But the time it'll take to finish this story will be daunting and I understand if you don't have time for that, I'm sorry once again. I want to thank you all again for you support and if you continue to support me, I'm even more grateful. But if you want to leave I am fine with that and completely understand.

Thank you again, and sorry again.