Is it trauma? (I have to rant)

Okay- I have something to rant and I can't get it out of my mind.

A few days ago, there was a fire at my grandma's apartment area. It was at the other block but if I go to the kitchen (the back), I can see the back of the other block which is the block at the corner.

So, I don't know how the fire started but I was making a drink for myself as it was lunch time. I heard screaming all of a sudden so at first, I don't care because I thought it was probably children who just got back from school since it was time for them to go home. But then, the screaming got louder so I looked to the side and saw a huge fire on the ground which soon spread up. And the people who lived next to the fire ran out, screaming.Other people soon started to come to put the fire out using water, fire extinguisher.

I was standing there at least for 5 minutes, like, frozen. My heart was beating really, really fast and my hands were shaking. The firefighter/fireman came and luckily, no one was injured. So, here's the problem; whenever I want to sleep at night, that event replay in my mind which makes me woke up at least twice around midnight and I end up looking around my room, listening to sounds. And whenever I walked to the kitchen, I saw that block, the black wall, I'm scared and the event of the fire came in my mind. And I started to think nonsense and unnecessary stuffs about fire.

Is this trauma? Is what I'm feeling is called trauma? I get anxious whenever I'm alone at home especially when I walk to the kitchen and saw that block.

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sleepingprince #1 Feb 17, 2017 05:30:56

I think you are just shocked because it happen out of a sudden. Give yourself some time and see .. It takes time to overcome sometime one or two weeks.. But if its more than that than maybe you'l have to get yourself evaluated just to be sure. Try distract your mind and dont look at the block or wall for long. I think they'l probably paint the building soon and that will somehow help you to overcome it.

Rory_Mtz_Valdivia #2 Feb 17, 2017 05:26:12

It trauma, like ptsd
Little story, I have anxiety, OCD, depression, insomnia and aspd. Mental disorders runs on my mother's side of the family, and lucky me, my sisters and I all have some form of it - mine worse then them. A few months back, the week of my birthday, while my middle sister and I were on our way home from buying milkshakes, our little sister calls me "Rory! Call Dad were being robbed!!" She works down the street from our house. Gun shots are an everyday thing. We cut through traffic, not caring about stop signs or red lights. I was on the phone with a dispatcher, my nail digging into my forearm as I'm tell the lady what's going on. She had patched me through to the officer in charge while she letting him know who I am I remember me saying "Mono, you see that MFer you slam on the gas and run him over."
Till this day, when she's working nights and I hear Gunshots I have to call her to see if she's okay. She couldn't sleep for two days. This happened in July and I'm barely starting to actually sleep at least sleep 4 hours a day.