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Breath es. Okay, my freidn told me to just vent so that’s what im doing? Or like just write everything out and like. Ye ah. Cus like. Problems with family and shiet. Ye that. But like it isn’t any big problems and the majority of it is just extreme and stress and pressure? Like idek. Meh. I think the pressure and stress started ever since I left my old school abroad early, before the finals so I wasn’t classified as a passed student ? so I might have to retake the grade. Or something idk. Theres like these charts on the websites of schools in Singapore about the age and which grade you should be and my age is kinda off? Im a bit too old to be redoing the grade I didn’t complete. And that leads me to my first hate point on my brother. Since hes the oldest and all, hes priorty ? so we had to leave abroad and come here to Indonesia and like. Idk why we ALL had to leave just cus one person in my family had to leave like unfair much? Meh. So we left and like. I was set on my own to find the school I had to attend and that kinda took a stress on me because it isn’t easy to find schools and all especially if you have no idea on how to do so and ur brother is just there saying “I didn’t know but I did it” like of first of all im not you . so, that isn’t even right. And so yes, I did find a school and I applied for the entrance exam but I didn’t pass unfortunately so I couldn’t go to school. Then I took a 2^nd posting exam and I didn’t get any offers either. So that’s when I got pressured. Cus my parents all went to top coleges and my brother recently got accepted into a college and got 4 college interview offers. Hes now going to a junior college alr and im still having no education what so ever. And it isn’t my fault im ty and cant do things myself. And my mom compares me to the people in Singapore, saying ppl there my age are dependant and smart and fast walkers and I m not any of those. LIKE OKAy . because I wasn’t raised like them. I wasn’t raised in a ccity like them. Okay I might have studied well in the past but sometimes school stresses and it isn’t easy to keep up and I m NOT a perfect child. I cant be what you want me to be. So that’s practically it for my education part and now to my siblings and family part which just as much.

So I have an older brother, 3 yrs apart and a younger brother, 10 years apart. And like. Things were going even before my lil brother came along. Me and my brother would fight a lot but nothing really major. We just faught over childish things like normal siblings but then when he did come along its like he changed . he had the idea now we have a new sibiling, he has the right to force me around. But that isn’t even what makes me mad. What make me super crazy is that hes so hypocritical and my parents actually side with him. Their reason? Im just acting weak and sensitive. It isn’t my fault I take things to heart. My brother is always shouting at mr saying I take jokes seriously and when he does the same thing he shouts at me sAYing I didn’t sound like im serious and he starts shouting. I don’t mind hypocrits, if theyre taking in a oking way but no. NO. my brother isn’t hypociritng everything I do and say as a Joke. Hes deadass serious. And its so heavy as well. And like. Idk how to explain its just dumb. Ok I understand sometimes people can be hypocrits without realizing but WHO The IN THE ACTUAL says DON’T Take things too seriously RIGHT After they take a joke seriously. And he has the rights to tell me, “because ure not telling me whats wrong there snothing wrong so u have no reason to not work”like Excuse me. I don’t want to tel you but I have a perfectly good reason why im nt moving my up to do your stupid orders.  JUST CUS u got into a college. Just cu sure older. Just cu sure more responsible. U just cannot order me around like a ing slave. Don’t shout at me for jokingly hitting you telling me not to hit you and I have no reason. He shouts way too much and rages way too much its goddamn annoying and I tel him to stop he scolds me for thinking I can tell him to stop. News flash . I can tell u stop because ure annoying neighbours, me and waking up our lil brother. He has no respect for neighbours what so ever and swears until the floor below can hear it. Its onestly so annoying. He does anything he wants and hwen I do the same, my parents punish me for it. They favour my brother without a doubt. A dn !

W ell. I have lots more to day but they aren’t in the tip of mind becaue I forgot about the useless past. Anyways. S o . w ell im gonna sleep now. Good nite  ^ ^ sweet dreams

theres prolyl a lot of typos and grammar mistakes but meh its late