Ehhhh I stopped coming to AFF for so long, but I really really really want to write again and I feel so ty and guilty for being gone for so long, but again, I really really really want to come back.

I know I've let all my readers hang on to various cliffs for... years? Has it been multiple years or months? I'm not even sure...

I've also been gone from all my favorite things - watching kpop videos, drawing and painting, playing games - and I want to get back to those things too. I've been trying to drag myself out of this dumb hole I've been hiding in, and coming back here has been one of the most difficult because of all the insecurities and guilt that had piled up over time.

>.>

sorry!