just asking, is there anyone out there knowing me? understanding me?
the answer is not
why? they don't know me
because when they know the real me, they will hate me
no one want to be friend with someone like me
who want be friend with someone rotten like me?
who want be friend with someone who angry at something simple?
who want be friend wiht someone who can't keep his mouth?
who want be friend with someone different from them?
who want be friend with someone with something like me?
even my parents, my family don't know the real me
they just know what happen outside
not the things inside my heart
we live in two perspective word
me and the others
me:
i know how bad my self is
i'm emotional and easily mad
i can't keep my word, when i talk it's like a snarky comment
that's why i always become the quiet one
i won't show my self to other
that's why i can trust anyone
keep my self quiet doesn't mean i don't care
i just can't show off my true feeling
others think about me:
she so arrogant
she so distance
she can't keep her etique and manner
she doesn't has a feeling
who said that?
my parents
i thought i can be my self with my family
but now i think i can't
they said they embarased having someone like me
they said i'm so arrogant because i can't ride a bus
i can't because  have motio sick, and it's so bad
they said i'm arrogant because i don't have many friend like my sister
why can't i have some friend that make me really comfortable
they said i'm heartless because i didn't give a begger some money
where they think i pick that attitude come from if not for them
i know i have may flaws and they said tired of this
so how about me?
i hate my self bacause i'm become something like this
i won't become a grumpy
i won't become anti sosial like this
my parents are extrovert and i'm a introvert
we can't have some feeling
we don't have ssame favorite
who think s more tired?
me!
don't they think i try
i hide my self to my friend
no one know i like this
i restrain my self
i know how have etique at outside
i know only said a snarky comment that's why i keep my mouth shut at my friend
can't i loosen up my self at home
just one slip from me and bbamm, they blaming me
they said i'm to embarassed for them
they just know me as a problematic child they have
they don't know my effort out there, they don't know