I went to the pray the gay away thing today. My parents booked me a session with a father. I wouldnt say his name but lets just call him S. S at first smiled at me but after he asked me of my confession which idk what should I say, he kinda shook his head. He said, its severe. It can be fix n he will help.

He said im here just to help, my mind isnt in correct path n has been altered. I mean was I kidnapped by the alien for my mind to be altered. He said we can fix it, i can stop being gay and i will be free from the wrath of hell.

But the problem is, i dont even know if im gay. I only like one guy n only him. He is the first he is the only one, the other guys even though how hot they are, i never had any feeling like when i was with him. And i still thinks girls are attractive. Its confusing.

But being told that if u like someone u will be in hell is just too devastating. I know, i did the forbidden but am i that wrong. I dont want my parents to look at me as a failure n i dont want his family to disown him too. But really, when we met at class today, i ignored him again but damn i really want to be with him.

Pray the gay away. Jeezz i dont know if i should stick to it.